jeffz

2006-02-13T01:19:00.000+08:00

hmm.. yesterday at ahmei's chalet.. helped out to start fire for bbq and etc.. wHIle starting the fire tHis gal took sWeet potato to me and asked if i could place it inside anot.. im tHinking... "hmm.. a fren is better than an enemy.. y not? alt she've said tat she dun need a fren like me".. so in the end i helped her... then i went back to the chalet rm to gamble with them.. then suddenly tot of asKing tat gal to join us playing.. but she wasn't there.. so i asked george where is she.. and he told me she went back .. so i was wondering who send her home at such time.. its kinda late oso.. so ask george.. then he say nv.. so i tHink i either ask nick or jianhui if any of them send her back anot ALso .. or mayb she went to her bf place since its nearby.. so should b safe.. i mean if no ppl send her back mayb if im on my way back can shun lu lor.. but nvm.. since she's gone i continue with my betting.. LOL* then after tat went out to SIgn on the guestbOOk for ahmei's bday.. just b4 i gO home.. linshi reminded me abt the chocolate she made for me.. and she oso told me tat she forGOtten to give to tat particular gal.. i only mention to linshi tat mayb she could pass it to george or whoever tat she tHink will meet her more often lor.. as u can see ppl might still take me as a stranger .. duhz.. just bcos of a small comment.. someone confronted me.. and even accuse me saying tat i say alot of stuff to wilson.. so i was wondering y so worked up ? and y accused me? yeah.. b4 i can ask or explain.. the old guy keeP on pointing hIs finger at me and asKing me to use my brain and tHink.. i was wondering.. y dun tat old guy tHink abt it tat.. its just nth and its ah mei's bday.. y can't he use his brain to THink tat its not nice making such a scene just bcos of sometHing tats no big deal at all.. and for the accusation .. mayb u should ask urself wat u told tat gal or whoever tat will tell wilson stuff except me.. or mayb its wilson wild guessing and just say a name tat causes all these? its not the first time oso.. OR even mayb bcos he's guilty and just ER ren xian gaO zhuang.. who knows? i apologise cos nt to make tHings unhappy between frens.. if u still tHink u r right just to confront nick and me just bcos of sometHing like tHis.. i find tat u r just too naive or over sensitive. 2ndly if u wanna drag stuff abt alot of ppl i offended.. i knew it long ago frm jianhui.. he told me tat b4.. ya.. but im glad tat at least jianhui treat me as bro ..tats y he tell me.. dun wait till problem is unable to solve then say.. if u all really take it like bro just say it out.. dun hide.. and solve the problem like man.. dun argue and backstab and end up like enemy. the old guy who confronted me.. i nv blame u for telling me.. instead i should thanks u.. but at the same time.. tHink b4 asking ppl to tHink... ppl's 21st bday suppose to b happy .. even if u still so unhappy abt small tHings i hope at least u bring me to a corner to tOk abt it like frens.. and as for the particular gal aka backstabber pro.. pls.. not all person trust u fully.. we've heard enough of ur rubbish. u r still as cHildish.. U dun like someone bcos she side me? tHink it thIs way.. she nv side me.. she side the fact. and u dun like me doesn't mean u cannot take her as fren.. grow up pls.

i've got enough frm fyp and other projects .. my temper might seEms bad lately.. so pls dun try to provoke me.. joke r accepted.. i can take jokes.. not like some grown up man tat is oversensitive over concerning for another fren. intially i was able to accept her back as a fren if nth much happen.. but after knowing so much tat she told so many ppl and bcos of tHis particular gal tat make my old guy so oversensitive over her so much.. i find tat theres nothing tat could make me accept her back as a fren oso.. its just too scary.. so fOR tat OLd guy.. pls .. i concern for tat particular gal cos she intiate to tOk first.. so i tot of being nice and concern then ask... if u dunno much abt wat she caused .. mayb u should ask her .. she noe it best. mayb even will tell u y i gOt no time to help huiwen finish up flash banner and etc..

ppl say.. when u grow up.. ur sight must b wider and able to handle tHings in a proper manner. not narrow minded and just find tat u r always correct... even i can admit my mistake tat y i offend so many ppl last time. i wish to noe more even.. at least i can change for the better or clear the misunderstanding..

jeff

2006-02-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

hmm.. todae went to sch.. then after sch went to meet xiumei for lunch.. bring her to kent ridge park to tOOk pictures~ damm.. the sky and sea are damm beautiful~... then send her to clementi where she meet her frens.. on my way back joey called.. and i went to parkway to accompany her find her formal wear.. lol.. its kinda enjoyable bah.. .. then after tat we went hOme .. i online awHIle toKiNg abt angie stuff with joey .. then i felL asLeep .. haaa.. till nite time wake up gonna rush to my aunty's place for visitng... wanted to ask angie out.. but i feel tat its not nice gOing out with her alone.. but tml the timing just sux.. so guess most prob. we ain't meeting.. haa.. and another tHing i just feel tat theres alot of fake ppl ard.... and i hope my george fren tHink carefully b4 he apologise.. i regretted not listening to my close frens in the past.. and therefore i was once a fool.. LOL* everyone can come out with their stories to make lies more true.. .. i hope tat person dun try to take advantage of frens ard me.. neither do i wish to reveal everything so obviously and make tHings LoOk so disgusting.. ..

jeff

2006-02-01T00:48:00.000+08:00

hmm... cHinese new yr~ lol.. collected angbows.. went to ahma's place to see those relatives.. omg.. it seEms like we only meet up once per yr~! lol * then 2nd day went to my aunty's place.. i got 3 cousin.. all still remember me.. yet it seEms to me tat they r just stranger.. i dun even remember knowing them..~ LOL.. sound so paiseh .. they call me and i give tat kinda weird loOk and ask if i do know them? LOL.. then tat nite joey stanley wendy george jordan yong and gina went to jianhui's place to play blackjack.. kao.. initally i lost abt 80+ luckily still manage to cover back... =) after playing.. we left jianhui's place abt 3+.. went to rai-ma to eat and cHit chat.. till abt 5 everyone left and head home for a nice rest..

REPORT REPORT REPORT.. I HAte FYP.. fASter get It over and done with~ damm it. later still got 10am lesson.. HAiz.. huiwen's flash i doubt i can gave it to her bah.. im left with not much time to even do my stuff if she can receive my email means she gt hope.. if not too bad.. sry.. i already said i tried my best.. i only gOt limited time to help u all yet "some ppl" trying to makes tHings difficult .... Anyway i hab my FYP report+ project and ECS project and bsIP + BEP lab test to torture me nx weEK.. so all frens pls not tat im not MIA.. im just too bz with sch stuff.. sry.

VERY importaNt~ STEAmbOAt dinnER at my Place On SAT~

::invited only::

jianhui+ahmei+ahkok+marcus+wendy+stanley+yong+gina+george+nick+joey+angie+jordan

jeff

2006-01-27T02:15:00.000+08:00

blog blog blog~! tml is CHinese new yr eVE le... just now went KTV with joey jianhui ahmei and jordan... having fun~ lol... yeah~ tHis is the kinda life we should hab... we should always stay happy... reach hOme le then send my dad to market.. gOnna work.. then later morning gOing to pray for my bro.. follow by sEnding my sister to work.. then i shall either wash to car or help mum at home.. kinda bz .. house still messy =X... then mayb evening time meet alicia bah.. todae kinda no time to send huiwen the flash file cos im still working hard on it.. somehow the effect seems like produce by a newbie in flash.. hAAa..

Firstly: i wish everyone a happy Chinese New Year.!~

Secondly: im Looking for YOU~! lol

jeff

2006-01-24T06:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. wake up early ~ Gonna GO cmpb for body check up and etc.. after tat mayb come home take car b4 gOing to sch if theres sufficient time.. if not rush to sch for project first.. then come home get the car.. ard 4+ or 5pm meeting xueyu and cyntHia.. damm.. i miss her lots... haa 4-5 yrs nv contact lor.. then mayb meeting cyntHia for dinner after xueyu leave lor.. cos she gOt sometHing on ard 7pm.. Last nite nv manage to chat with jenny.. kinda tired so rest early.. sms her she oso no reply.. blog more tonite bah.. its a brand new day .. nth much for me to blog oso.. Anyway.. i really hab a nice good rest last nite~ dun hab to suffer frm ppl's attitude finally~ haa.. But wat issit regarding gals who look for guys tat can drive them ard?? so nice to make use of ? guess tHis is a good topic..mayb previously regarding wilson and tat boh liao matter i kinda trusted the wrong person oso( its the trust not the lOOks la :::joey)... it really takes time for u to see a person clearly .. =) frm now on hope all my rounding frens noe wat they should do ar... i can only warn them with wat is going on and truth and fact.. if they still choose to stupidly trust the wrong person then i gt nth much else to say... In fact kailing ask a very good question.. "does her bf noe tat she's doing all these".. i doubt he can take it. LOL*

anyway CNY coming~ hee.. hope to get more ang baos~ =P

jeff

2006-01-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

hmm.. morning wake up continue editing the flash.. then msg the boh liao person to receive the file if she can online.. after survey.. out of 10 only 2 said its complicated.. others like the design.. and the way she say it as if i was paid to do so... sometimes when u r nice to someone... they will often take it for granted... mayb it really takes time to sEe someone's true self bah.. after chatting with joey abt lots of stuff i realise im nv wrong in the begInning.. trUst is given to the wrong party bah.. kinda regret being stupid.. but at least im much wiser now.. i believe tHose tat's my true frens.. not faKe. hee*
In the afternnon i went Ktv with jiahui ,jianhui,ahmei,joey,yongshun,(dunno tat gal name) and linsHI. lol.. Kinda long nv join them for KTv le..hAHAa.. sang till abt 8+ - 9pm we went to raima to hab our dinner together.. after dInner i send LinsHi home .. then proceed to meet xueyu daRLing~ LOL... nv meet her fOr yrs.. we stIll gOT alot to catCH up.. Haa.... tok alot of stuff.. then i found a new verse for the day.. " life is a long path and we must keep on walking on.. just like stars in the sky.. its uncountable.. forever countIng.." hmm... somehow xueyu darling keep on asking me to jio back cyntHIa.. but its such old history le.. another Impossible THing is tat she's attached.. i've promised myself nt to even tHink abt ppl who is attached... its so bOH liao.. in tHis world its practical.... MOney cAR houSE Sex= love.. LOL* grow up bah jeff* ... =) she reminded me abt 14 feb ... she will b lonely.. same as me mah.. Life still gOes on.. its still just a dAY nth special .. =P im not like JianhUi and ahmei or joey and nick.. gOT 4 yrs planning b4 married.. i dun even hab a r/s.. marry with whO? LOL .. keep suaning me .. Bthz*
lol

jeff

2006-01-21T02:59:00.000+08:00

went out with sufanna and her fren.. frm bugis to town.. then i proceed with my bowling ... sms alicia and meet her @ bedok mrt.. i was early so i make a trip to her blk.. just so stupidly waiting for nth and look into the windows.... sO wat if im there? she wun b meeting me anyway.. avoiding is all she want and all we should do just to make her feel right whIle she's attached with her bf.. i smsed her... and realise she's at home.. just merely telling her im somewhere near.. but the respond was kinda attitude bah.. so didn't really wanna ask her out to watch the stars with me.. in the end still went to meet alicia .. bring her to where i first used to bring "HER" to... watch stars. and plane taking off... somehow alicia can get along well with me bah.. we chatted quite alot.. abt stuff in the past till now.. the kinda feeling she gave me was close... but still not up to the limit of being like couples... mayb everythIng takes time to forget and begin bah... wateva it is... im dOing part of the flash now ... kinda headache abt it.. hAIz...

"FRENz" is the word u keep focusing on.. y? ask urself ..

if u say i nv regard u as a fren.. then u r really wrong.. i treated u as one when u requested it.

jeff

2006-01-20T09:03:00.000+08:00

hmm... kinda seh yesterday... luckily shan reach home liao still msg me.. else still worrying for her.. Zzz... dRank so much.. haiz.. anyway... thIs morning she called me i guess.. and when i called her she told me she gOing to work already... Zzzzz... then oso dunno she call me for wat? less than 10 mins i return the call she said she's gOing off to work.. anyway its ok la.. must get used to all these ... damm.. tHink drink too much.. pimple pop out.. ARrr.. b4 cNY leh~ kAOz.. trying all angle to push it out.. but still cannot come out... so pain till my tears just drop out like tat.. i hate i hate pimples~! ARRr.r.. im kinda late for fYp.. 9:30 must reach sch now still at home lol... later 12++ onwards still gonna meet marie for lunch in bugis.. ZzzZ... saw her yesterday with her curled hair.. Look so pretty and sExy .. LOL.. i straighten she curl.. WtH~ lol.... blog more tonite...

jeff

2006-01-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

hmm.. nth much todae.. morning till afternoon online and chat with su. she's working then kinda disturb her.. LOL* she like to sEe me hug my bolster on the webcam.. and keep asking me Pose for her to sEE.. ZZzz -.-" . lol .. then rush to sch for fyp.. didn't really do alot.. oso nv manage to test the board... and frm alvin and patrick i gOt to noe abt the SP open.. so went ard looKing for ppl to form a team of 3.. now lack of one more bowler... mayb lynal or mayb my classmate.. then called yun and realise she's walking towards t14 to print stuff so went to meet her.. then realise her project group mates kinda weird.. LOL.. waited till 5+ to 6pm then she finally done with her project.. almost fell asleEP.. WahAa... by the time we reach east its abt 7pm... rush hOme... online + dinner.. then send my sister to pay her creditcard bill thru AXS.. then send her home.. from there i proceed with my plan.. tot huiwen was batHing whIle i called her.. then i make my way to tiongbahru to wait for her since initially we planned to meet.. but in the end i waited 1 hr she nv turn up and nv call back.. so i went to SPGG since pamela was bowling.. once i went to sPGG.. i chatted with sya's mum and dad... they kinda asked me where i've been and y nv bowl.. etc etc.. and alot abt SP bowling club politics.. i somehOw expected theres alot of stuff might happen.. therefore i rather disappear frm the team.. currently im just a leisure bowler.. then i went to meet xiumei... we went to holland village TCC.. eat and chat ... realise my fringe longer than hers.~ lol.. then sent her home.. after tat i proceed to shelia's place... went to get flashMX CD frm her... without the CD i can't help huiwen do her online banner oso.. now trying to install and recall how i used it last time.. WAHaaa.. anyway... i wun let personal matters get involve into my serious work.. and hope tHose unreasonable person just contact thru huiwen with any comments/suggestion and etc...

jeff

2006-01-18T13:12:00.000+08:00

dunno wats wrong last nite.. damm.. everytHing oso my fault my wrong.. she called me .. she cried.. then i ask y she refuse to tell.. im so worried whIle im driving .. mayb i've just used the wrong tone tOking to her bah.. but after tat come back home online i msg her asked abt her seE if she's alright anot wHIle im playing gunbound with yun.. tats oso sEEms to b my fault... she requested to webcam.. i agReed.. then? my fault again? wTf sia.. ask me webcam.. then in the end show me the unhappy attitude.. i msg her trying to cheer her up.. in the end i landed up cHatting all to myself like a stUpid fool... i THink everytHing is enough to bring it to an end lor.. fuck it.. i treat u as a fren u treat me like dirt.. thanks.. i dun need tHis kinda ppl ard me.

jeff

2006-01-16T15:29:00.000+08:00

YesTerday can't online.. fORgOTten to pay the stUpid stArHUb bill.. After the NTu toK went out with my classmates... then i meet qiuyun to gO tamp watch a movie "elizabethtown" its a pretty nice movie i can say.. meaningful and interesting.. watch and and try to get the meaning behind it.. figure it out urself~ =) ..then nite time i walk her hOme and tot i can meet jiahui.. but she's only free ard 11.. so i gO hOme... lie on my bed then feLL asLeep... just nice i was abt to wake up she called me and tell me she can meet me already.. so i wake up and meet her lor.. intially tot of just supper.. but in the end went to afew places... quite enjoyable =) hope she's no longer moody and sTAy happy always~ cHinese new yr is just ard the corner.. so dun b unhappy... life still goes on... we ain't subsitute of anyone.... we r there to b happy .. =) .. past is past.. mayb time will prove everytHing bah.. anyway.. im gOing to mess up my hair later... haa.. made an appoint at raffles place @ 5pm.. just received a bOh liao msg in friendster by a gal telling me tat she browse thru and saw me.. and she got a high paying job for me.. Zzz.. bOh liao de.. seLL aSS ar?? lOl.. tml fitness teST liao.. hOpe i score a silver and i can GO army 2mth leSSER!~ lol...just pray hope only la... oso dunno can anot.. didn't train for so long already..

what is important is not only future.. its NOW.. without now.. u might not hab future~

jeff

2006-01-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

Lian ai / yi lai .. whIch one r u feeling for me?? haiz.. li xing / gan xing .. y do life hab to be so complicated? tO learn to be stRonger? or to differentiate the strongest frm the weakest? i tHink im in the category of stupid and foolish .. i tried to b strong to determine the ending part of our "not suppose" situation ... yet so weak to feel the hurt here.. hope you stay happy all the wHIle.. we shall meet at the allocated day... the drawing might not be nice.. but hope u appreciate it..

will be mugging hard for studies and bowling.. i noe my piority.

jeff

2006-01-12T11:38:00.000+08:00

alot alot of stuff keep happening lately bah.. haiz.. yesterday wanna tok to her nicely yet it bcome a arguement.. guess im not understanding enough bah.. haiz* seems tat whenever im ard she wun b happy at all.. wish to tell her stuff yet she wish to hang up.. and etc etc.. so i just let it be bah... dunno tats right or wrong.. somehow i noe i should just let gO slowly and get on with my life bah.. seems like alot of ppl disagree on me waiting for an attached gal... impossible is the word they keep using.. indeed theres alot of better and nice gals ard... if im someone who keep changing my girl bcos another is much better.. i will land up nowhere.. im contented to hab her in my life.. or rather i should say i should thanks her for stepping in and out of my life.. haiz..
maybe bowling n studying is all i can concentrate on.. i will b bowling a new league with pam and afew other bowlers at a new bowling alley.. guess i will rarely gO back to spgg already.. sort of change homeground le bah... hopefully new yr bowl a new gOOd average out bah... i've decided to close down tHis blog once she closed hers....since we might be communicating lesser.. guess tHis is the only way to noe how each other is ...

im still holding on..

nt bcos im stubborn..

bcos you mean alot to me..

Sorry.

jeff

2006-01-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

kk.. todae didn't do my paper well.. haIz.... 70% of contridiction.. wat is these abt? haizz.. pls just leave me since u choose him..wat else can i do? leave the upset to me.. and just get on with ur life can u? haizz... i noe its nv easy to cope ... i will determine till the end... i oso hope u will reconsider but since u r oso determine tat ur ans is still him.. wat else do u expect me to do? im someone special + impt? yet y am i not? haiz...

jeff

2006-01-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... after finish revising my BSIP i slack till now .. hAIz.. just now went downstairs .. too bored le.. went to sHop prime n ntuc... Zzz ... the feeling is so different too.. Haa.. no mood to GO such place alone bah... jasmine tot of introducing icy to me. ..haa.. do i really look so in need to b in r/s? haiz.. friday faster come.. i dun wish to stay in SG each and every moment frm now... i waited and waited... haiz... guess i gOing to sLp sOOn le... gOOd luck to me for tml MST paper BSIP & ECS. GOd~ u can't help me... cos im not ur follower.. im only someone WHo believe in my own ability and fate lies within my control~.. i reSpect gOD cos i want gOd to reSpect me too~.. mutual respect~ hAIz..

jeff

2006-01-02T04:17:00.000+08:00

come to tHis pt .. i gt nth to say but to accept the fact tat we have to part... didn't really do alot of tHings todae... stoning alot.. feel so lost... then i called huiwen to ask her out for coffee .. just nice she's with jimmy @ holland V. tot of meeting her after my dinner but she gT to go hOme early so too bad no choice... and another tHing is .. tODae dinner sux to the core.. make me puke... Zzz.. missing her so much yet i couldn't even msg her... haiz.. cos she's with her bf ... as simple as tat im nth now.. back to square one.. hope she's happier with him... then i sms madeline .. and realise the hP madeline is not the madeline frm sP.. wat else can i do ? haiz.. wanna find someone to just occupy the time and make me bz instead of tHinking all abt her bah.. hAa.. 21 liao now toking abt all these make me sounds like a gal... anyway hope everytHing goes well bah.. then i sms dawn and pass her my bday cake.. bring to her doorstep somemore.. hAa.. cos its oso on the way to lioncity to play billard with yong jianhui and stanley.. kinda no mood to play.. keep on losing.. from -6 range to - 20 .. kaoz.. wat kinda concentration is tHis? haiz.. i tHink if bowling i sure score only 100++ haiz.. wateva games oso need concentration.. guess i dun hab it bah.. must try harder to concentrate on tHings i do liao.. else i can soon retire or collapse.. n i will make sure i study very hard for my 2 papers tml.. BSIP is already done left with embedded computer system and biomedical equpiment practices...sTraight after tHur paper i will b gOing to thailand with my family.. haiz.. another place to forget unhappiness bah.. come back gOnna prepare to study hard again and oso to prepare for CHinese nEw yr liao.. wHo and whO shall b the one tat i brIng hOme for reunion dinner? hmm.. seEms like most of there will b someone there with me oso.. HAa.. mayb tHis shall b my lonely yr liao.. aiyAH.. dun tHink so far first.. now THink abt my papers first bah...

ET0073 BIOMEDICAL SIG & IMAGE PROC 03/01/2006 Tue 10:30 AM 12:00 PM T632

ET0059 COMPUTER CONTROL SYSTEMS 03/01/2006 Tue 05:30 PM 07:00 PM T1521

ET0074 BIOMEDICAL EQPT & PRACTICES 05/01/2006 Thu 10:30 AM 12:00 PM T825

haiz.. i can only wish and pray. 2 yrs later i wun b here anymore. i dun hab much time left*

haiz.. time shall prove everything

jeff

2005-12-29T03:16:00.000+08:00

just realise tat alot of tHings need to go by feelings bah.. anyway.. just now send them to clubbing then i proceed to my study session with my assistant Miss Pamela. LOL* and my company Miss Xiumei... with the help of Miss Pamela i finally get to noe more abt BSIP.. and i need more practices to make it perfect.. and ke lian de MIss xiumei was so bored.. so aFter TCC session i send Miss Pamela Home then proceed with some activity with MIss xIumei... we went to west coast park.. kinda hab a nice long walk bah...after tat send Miss XIumei home and proceed back to momo and send a lady home. mayb its bcos of my mood bah.. whoLe day wasn't tat great.. therefore didnt really wish to chat with her.. no mood to joke oso.. mayb its time i really get serious with my life.. been tHinking lately.. i tHink i finally noe wat i should do. the longer it drags the more unhappy we'll b in future.. later i will b study hard for my coming test bah.. sorry if u all can't find me.. i just wish to concentrate on my studies.. at the same time i should get used to the life without her ard.. can say im avoiding now bah.. cos she already made her mind clear.. all i can do is just respect her decision.. my feeling just tell me so... mayb should just get on with my own life bah.. Junting , Bee , dawn , xin are all attached.. yet i still hold onto tHese when im not suppose to.. haiz.. feelings always lead me to the wrong path... so wat if we do like each other alot? we can't b together too.. cos they r attached~ mayb only good gals r attached bah.. therefore im only hunting for those.. Zzz* sometimes really feel tat life is real terrible.. the one tat u love and love u r nt able to b with u.. yet the 1 u treat them as fren yet they like u keep on coming to u... haiz... wat is happening to my life~? haiz... sO wat if i can gib u assuarance? im nth and just some stupid jerk tat flirt with ppl's gf.. im really sick of thIs kinda fucking life.. yet still gonna live it.. bday is tml and so suddenly alot of stuff screw up.. really hope she's there for me as a gf tat i can really say everytHIng and share everytHing with.. but its not meant to be... "One man's thrash is another man's treasure".. hope soon u will get the meaning... aLL the best.. and i hereby wish myself a happy farking 21st bday bah.. wun b able to blog tml.. will b mugging the whole daY for MST .. L=live I=in F=fucking E=environment. tHis is it..

after my bday i will do the last tHing tat u nv do b4.. whIch is to fly kite with u... hoping it will b the moment of sunrise too.. tats all i can do for u.. may ur wish come true.. all the best..

jeff

2005-12-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

wah wAH wah~ so long nv blog le~ lol* Christmas eve went to shenton way partyworld with xin, mao , mei , joey , linshi , kailing , jiahui , nick , jasmine. having our fun time singing there chIt chatting there lor..no ppl go focus on the time ..Haa.. expecting the partyworld worker to inform us .. but by the time we discovered its christmas its kinda late.. Haaa =P then yesterday i slack at home whole day figuring out wat to draw. but no paper can't draw .. Wahaaa =x anyway.. tml is my sister bday le.. and very soon its mine!~ HEhe*

jeff

2005-12-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

my grandma came over to stay todae.. didn't really do alot of THings todae... went to simlim tower to buy component then go sch to assemble.. 3 parts of the circuit .. so 3 of us take one each.. i finish my part fast.. and i oso fell asleep so fast.. join 3 chairs and sLp in the lab... slp till 5:11pm then we left sch.. so tired and not feeling well.. the feeling of missing is strong but i shouldn't always sms her.. afterall she gt all her freedom to do wateva she want.. just hope she do take gd care of herself...On the way home i saw pamela's cousin... Haa.. just so happen tat she's on her way to bugis... then when i reach home i fell asleep immediately again till ard 10+pm then i wake up again.. initially tot of going to make appointment to visit doc. but wake up so late... so lazy le.. then i called her to chat with her... and dun feel like eating dinner... haiz* dunno wats happening to me... mayb cancelling meeting avonda tml.. since not feeling well mayb i gO home after sch .. tml still gtg sch for quiz n oso self study..

sorry! i really dunno ur problem until i read ur blog..haiz*

jeff

2005-12-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

haiz... todae went to spgg to bowl..gT no mood to bowl well.. everything seems to b wrong.. haiz.. mayb just bcos she's nt tat bah.. or i tHink too much le.. hai* ... tot of meeting janice for movie after bowling but she told me she can't watch with me cos she in hospital.. so kinda worried .. so called her then realise her grandma was in ICU.. so didn't get to watch king kong.. then went to eat supper with alen , and send HIm home after tat. i went home to online hoping to seE her.. but too bad she's nt there... mayb its fate bah.. haiz.. anyway... i was quite happy to know tat cynthia and xueyu are COming for my bdaY!~~! hAaa.. surprisingly cyntHia still remember me .. Haa* ... then i called janice again to ask more abt her grandma's condition.. tot of going down to accompany her but she's with her dad... and theres nth much i can do if i go there.. so i chat with her on phone to keep her company while she's waiting outside the ICU.. her grandma's condition is still unstable... hai* and she might b cancelling her overseas volunteer trip... dunno oso .. but decision is still up to her.. just hope tat her grandma is fine and she will b fine too...

its exactly 1 week away frm the promise. countdown*

i dare not put in much hope anymore.. but just hope to see u on my bday*

jeff

2005-12-15T03:27:00.000+08:00

sorry... i dun mean to hide anyTHing frm u... just didn't expect the way u want me to ans so clearly.... and at tHis pt of time i really hope u go tHink abt our status... and im wrong cos i shouldn't show my temper.... pls dun conclude/assume tat wat happen now will happen in future (if theres possible chance to b together) cos currently our status r really very very confusing.... as my being the impt gal on my bday .. i still hope u r the one... alt most of my frens r female...
at the same time sorry once again to make u and ur mum wait for me.... alt they delayed my time, afterall its still my fault not leaving earlier....i dun apologise for nth or without knowing my mistake... i just hope we clarify tHings nicely... i understand u r tired after working... so didn't really wanna argue with u oso.. ....

if u do forgive me do give me a call... at the same time wanna date u out to watch kingkong... but dunno if u r watching it with someone even more impt anot.. haiz....

jeff

2005-12-14T02:41:00.000+08:00

mayb to her promise means nth bah... anyway... 1 yr frm 12/12 is the promised we made ... no obligation for the outcome to b positive.... at least its much better tHis way.... and i really hope theres no changes... but u insisted ... so theres nth much i can do... hope u r really happier bah.... dun confuse urself with wat u 'need' instead with wat u 'want'... since we should meet lesser and can't b like b4.... i agree with it then... lastly ... the happy moments we spent together will still b kept in my mind.... alot of 'first time'.... hope u find the changes and difference just now and onwards bah.... kk ... tats all and im gOing to bed.... nitez.

im willing to hear frm u once u really noe wat u want..take ur time to think abt it.

jeff

2005-12-07T10:50:00.000+08:00

haiz... really dunno wat to say... too bz and upset yesterday... dun wish to blog abt it .... anyway... this is life.... ups and downs... would u rather let someone to decide ur future or u decide it for urself? haiz.... sometimes i really dun understand yet i noe i must just accept it.... theres notHing much i can do.... im really tired of tHis kind of life now... Firstly its Bee, now her... I really admire jianhui and ahmei... after going thru so much... they r finally together happily... haiz.... since u wanna let him decide on u... i hope u both stay happier together and always. Move on bah... this is life ... im getting 21 soon.... will b having a chalet @ downtown east on the 30dec... must turn up wor.. i miss u guys... bring wateva u gOt and we drink the whole nite long.... =)

jeff

2005-12-05T15:03:00.000+08:00

haa.... she called me again... with her new no. ... having boring embedded computer system (practical + tutorial). normally i will gO for practical but skip tutorial... but todae stay for both... tats y reach home quite late... Next week is my lab test liao... then nx week tutorial will b giving out tips... must study study hard liao.... tml is my TNP presentation... haa... i only go once for TNP tutorial... b4 leaving sch i meet yaowei and wu jia yi to do our ppt slides.... then yaowei and me went to fC4 to eat.... saw the redbull gals .. then they approach us to gib free drinks... ZzzZzz.. drink liao dun needa sleeP.... anyway... my granny coming over my place to stay for afew days... so cannot go out play too late le.. lol* else kana nag... =x...

jeff

2005-12-05T08:07:00.000+08:00

yeaH yeah!~ .... she called me last nite ... ard 1am... haa... so happy... chatted with her for 8 mins plus.... so relieved too ... she's fine... just tat those stuff making her panick and troubling her... hope she's fine todae.... hee* didnt really get much rest... too happy le bah... wake up ard 3am...4+am and even 6+am ....... haa* ... Blog b4 gOing to sch.... later will bLog more =P happy happy day =P

jeff

2005-12-04T18:28:00.000+08:00

didn't really get much rest.... sms her at ard 6.... hardly feel so... haa.. haiz... hope she take care of herself bah.... looking forward for thursday to come.... 5 days... counting down~ as for todae... i didn't really go out much la... just go to bedok interchange to buy pirated game... 'need for speed most wanted' but dunno issit bcos of my idiot pc or the idiot cD can't work... so go back to change... still same matter happen... haiz... guess its my pc bah... faTEd to study* hee* ... think no choice gonna study hard for my coming MST le lor.. then leave the game to play after test bah.... called huiwen to tok abt alot of stuff... haha... anyway... i didn't went out with any gals todae... except my sis.... even wilson asked me out just now for dinner ... i oso nv join them... todae family day...

jeff

2005-12-01T10:56:00.000+08:00

haa... dunno wats wrong with me... once again i fall for someone who is attached.... the chances of us being together is 0.0000000001% i guess... haiz..... sometimes the happy one wun b the one walking this long journey with u...... just hope the memories will last bah.... WTH to my life again!~? haiz... EXPECTATION is notHIng but just a WANT..... if ur EXPECTATION is a NEED.... i will give all i can to fufil it~..... i NEED u.... walking tHis journey with me... haiz* cos i no longer wish to miss anymore chance of getting the right person.....

in life theres nv such tHing as fair... but in life... theres such tHing call happiness

jeff

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2005-11-30T01:36:00.000+08:00

Very sorry... i admit its my mistake... hereby hope u forgive me.

jeff

so

2005-11-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Trust..... i no longer trust ....... bcos of wat she did and she should noe it.... i gt nth else to say... i dun wish to see or hear frm her frm this moment on. its not harsh... cos i've clearly seen who she is.. =) life will be better...

jeff

2005-11-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

so long nv update again..... anyway... im such a stupid idiot... haiz... took the wrong path again and again. junting is attached tat time... bcos of my existance... i caused so much problem between her bf me and her.... all 3 of us. i regretted... i should hab kept my feelings inside me and let it be.... haiz.... now my fren's fren....... dunno y she's someone who make me feel kinda different bah... her looks are normal...... double caring i guess... or mayb i just get the wrong idea... todae IT show is a mess... firstly i really not feeling well... 2ndly im not who i am... i actually bcome someone irresponsible(quit my IT show) just bcos i wish to see her... wanna meet her for movie... wat the hell is going on?~! tHis path isn't tat easy to reach perfect... just hOpe everyone ard me is happy...... By the way now i noe y im happy when u and ur bf gt no problem and so lovely... cos u r happy right now.... =)

jeff

2005-11-19T15:58:00.000+08:00

nth really happen much yesterday la.... went to sentosa to pick huiwen after her work... then go to suntec with her to collect her movie tix... just nice saw wilson liping and joey in suntec.... after suntec then send her back home lor... since she's not feeling well... brought 4 bowling balls to SPGG for testing... Mass CHaos/Bully/Quake/Maxim... .. guess i will bring bully and maxim for the qualifying round bah... thumbhole is much comfortable... after bowling i meet up with joey jianhui ahmei wilson liping n george for 'dinner'.. then went for pool and go home...

As for todae guess i will b going marine cove bowling alley to check out the qualifying score bah... now still finding ppl to go with me... haa.* mummy and daddy is coming back tonite~! yiPeE~... miss them lots .... they should b in the plane now... =P And i was thinking how to celebrate my 21st bday... chalet or wat... hmmm.... wondering who will be free on tat day... hope to see all my frens gathering together...

jeff

2005-11-18T13:47:00.000+08:00

hmm..... yesterday nite went out dinner with my sister then slack all the way at home... lol.. Rare... tok abt my studies with my sister.... mayb after my ns i will b going over to Uk for further studies.... dunno sister will come along anot.... anyway tats still quite a long way ahead la... now gonna study hard . Later will b going bowling training tonite @ spgg... hee... will be going marine bowl for the qualifying... hope i bowl well bah... so they will sponsor me to bowl MILO cup in KL... else i wun b going without sponsor ....

jeff

2005-11-17T11:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm... kinda long nv blog liao... hee... life still the same as usual... went out to eat with huiwen+ weixin yesterday @ bugis TCC. they seems very tired after work.. so after the meal just send them straight home.. then gO to CCBCM to find jianhui + ahmei... .. ahmei oso tired after work..... so jianhui send her home first before our billard session.. we went to katong to play number ball... just nice get to see kerson+zhiwei+sherman+zhizhun+kimhua+their friends there.... haa... happy belated bday to kerson...- anyway wilson + stanley + jianhui + me finish the game at 2:15am... went to eaT CCBCM before going home....i reach home abt 3+am ..... tats all tat happen yesterday =) nth much happen =)

jeff

2005-11-08T02:31:00.000+08:00

haiz... i really dunno wat i did wrong oso... isn't love all abt being happy together with opposite partner which makes u feel more than a fren? ya indeed i really felt happy... yet she sms and say tat im happier with jh and frens playing "rummy" instead of going out with her... haiz.... she always tends to get the wrong idea of wat im saying to her.... and it seems always my fault... firstly she attracted me.... yet she seems to give up on it oso... dunno wat she's thinking... haiz...
secondly when i giving up... she sound unhappy.... haiz.... thirdly i spend time with my close frens... she felt tat im happier with them instead of her.... Zzzzzz.... y can't she seperate friendship and relationship... Zzzz .... if i can only choose one... i will choose friendship...

if u r reading this :: i just want u to note 2 things

1stly im happy tat u spend ur time with me for tat movie+journey home...

2ndly im dun really understand wat u trying to imply to me or even wat r u angry abt.

(tell me if u noe wat u really want)

Lately i realise i can concentrate alot on bowling... ever since im single.... mayb lesser stress + pressure bah..

easier to concentrate on targeting and also able to adapt to different lane condition easily...

hope this will maintain ... even tho' i didn't went for the sch team selection... but i still wish SP IVP bowling all the best~

jeff

2005-11-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

bad day

haiz... i need u,

but it always seems so far away.

russ ran away frm another owner.

haiz

gonna suffer a breakdown soon

tears keep flowing yet u felt nth.

y do i ever hab to know u and see u leave?

Cherish

once gone it will never be back.

For russ n u.

jeff

2005-10-29T09:31:00.000+08:00

This is my semester 2 timetable : http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y135/jeffz21/timetablesemester2.jpg

2005-10-29T02:25:00.000+08:00

im gonna start my new semester soon.. and at the same time i hope everything goes smoothly... for my studies and for my life... =P same to all too... if u decide to be with him... i hope u r happier with ur decision... all i can do is just to take care of u ... and try to make u happy whenever u r out with me.. =) give me an ans soon.... all the best for the coming semester~ ...

jeff

2005-10-02T16:49:00.000+08:00

QUite LoNg nv upDAte liao... HEe* alright la... life still acceptable~ hope everyone sTAy happy everyday bah.... by the way i will b sElling Japanese CHeesEcakeS... wHOever wHO is interesTed can buy/order frm me... try out... its great~ =P homemake somemore leh...~! haa... not expensive la... haa... anyway.... eXams Over liao!~ and i will b finding job at the same time bside doing the ChEESecaKE SEllIng~.... BOwLing oso... i will b back~ waIt for me!~ hee.... i wanna cATch back my average.... =P KTV session~! ROlleRbLAdinG~! TEnnIS~!wHO want just jio ~! =P alot alot to do... alot alot to meet up with~ hOW i wish to meet up with u guys here often... hee*

jeff

2005-09-19T13:47:00.000+08:00

exams coming..... THese period i wun b able to blog so often.... =P wish me luck bah~ all the best to aLL SP students too~

jeff

2005-09-03T08:43:00.000+08:00

guess everytHing hab come to a pt of no return bah... its time to let go... and i will... hope u r happier... meanwHIle everyone from TP/SP ... sTUdy hard bah... exams r coming~! all the best... to adeline and joey~ anyway.... im working in the IT show todae @ suntec... should b kinda boring bah... if anyone of u wish to get PC/laptop from ACEr pls call me!~! ... hee... go there to noe new frens bah... at the same time can spend my time there rather than slacking at home...
Since u've made ur decision so clearly... i guess i hab nth else to say anymore.. i dun tHink it will b another misunderstanding bah... enjoy and stay happy always....

jeff

2005-08-26T02:57:00.000+08:00

haiz.. .i really dunno wat hab i been doing and trying to tell her lately... my sms seems to lead her to the wrong idea... im not giving up.. yet i oso dun wish to b part of her spare tyre... haiz.... life just simply sux... y can't i just forget it and move on... i just simply hate myself for wat i've done in the past to cause all these now... haiz... afew more days and she's gonna tell me her ans.. i somehow oso expected the ans.. but just hope she's happier these few days bah... Todae went to KTv with them... voice sux with soar throat... damm... alot of ppl falling sick lately... the weather sux... the mosquitoes sux mORE~ .... haiz* cutie shan.... just follow ur heart bah... just dun regret for wateva decision u gonna make... dun b like me bah.. haiz* foolish and idiot me... haiz*.. love is a journey tat u spend with the right person .. cherish and stay happy always... forgive and forget~ learn to give and take bah... haiz... last time im just a useless bf... now i've learnt alot.. yet im still stuck here... cos i regretted making the wrong decision in the past... im still left with choice... but i just wish to do my best for the one last time b4 i give up totally on her... haiz... my love is still with u... sob*

jeff

2005-08-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

todae after class... went to Fc 4 to meet tat fatty ah mei and cutie xiao shan together with wallen... lame and joke alot there wHIle waiting for 'her' to reach... haa* .... then after tat went to orchard with her to get her dad's bday cake... alright bah.. the cake is consider cheap... 10bucks + afew cents... haa... then she wanna eat ice cream.... like a kid like tat... haa* =X .... so eat lor.... after ice cream session.... i accompany her back to boonkeng.. then frm there i take bus and transfer to train then bus again =P haa* reACH home not long... jianhui called and we finally found hIm~! ... then we meet up together with wilson jasmine joey and sharon @ parco bugis... dunno y i for no reason park ... waste my $2 just parking less than 30 mins.. kaoz~! ..... eat money de... then on the way to unity street to confirm wat cake to get for 'her' i took wrong route... lost in tat area... passby ERP twice ... dunno how much oso... haa.. sianz de... singapore is getting very jialat... everywhere oso ERP liao... see liao super scary lor..... one day can spend 10bucks on ERP if u gonna travel alot... sTUpid government.. if u wanna solve the traffic jam... just increase the speed limit....... remove all sTUpid cameras la~ ... LOL* ..

after confirming wat cake to get for her.. i went to bugis... .anotheR ERP again.. kaoz* ... then go SIM lim find jianhui sharon n ahmei.... after shopping for quite sometime... we went to bedok to hab our dinner together.... ... heard tat jasmine is going HK later ard 4am flight.... bON voyage*.. enjoy urself.... remember to buy stuff back for us~ lol... nth much happen todae bah... just ankle feeling pain back again.. stupid de... haiz.*

mayb its time to let go soon and move on... regretting makes me learn how to cherish ...... i wun let it happen anymore .. i guess time isn't right bah... haiz*.... everybody learn from their mistakes.... at the same time i oso hope u make a firm and right choice so as not to tHink back anymore in future... no matter its him or me... i just hope u r happier with ur choice bah... *regret is the biggest mistake i ever made* ..

sick*

jeff

2005-08-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

haiz.... i seems to bring her alot of problems... or mayb i shouldn't even tOk abt it... and keep it to myself.. .haiz... no matter wats ur deicision i just hope u live happier and stUdy hard bah... haiz

sorry, i love you.

jeff

2005-08-20T09:45:00.000+08:00

todae competition got alot of pros... so scary... haiz.. i will just do my best... =P anyway... its just a game bah... after match most prob. i will b meeting adeline for awHIle bah... dun wanna put her aeroplane again.. hAa... then nite might b meeting 'her' bah.. not sure... somehOW or rather i feel tat we r going to miss the chance again soon... haiz.... the timing is nv right.... fate just sux bah... haiz...... not gonna hOLd on to it if it really fated to happen again and again... haiz.. im too tired ..... gonna get prepared to leave home soon.. not driving todae ... sianz de..... i just hope i do well for the game bah.... mayb not the best among all the pros.. but the best result i can get lor.. =( ... nth means more than 'u' to me.... haiz*.. blog more either tonite or when bah....

jeff

2005-08-16T18:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm... get back my eTs result. ... haa... kaoz.. nv stUdy oso can do so well =X haaa... see liao luff till peng*... yet tHose wHO study so hard did so badly... purely luck bah... cannot b too proud .. =) ... time to stUdy hard liao.... anyway... after class ended.. i went to basketball court to wait for her... since jianhui and frens still at home haven't come sch... so i played 3 hrs of bball.. from 11+am - 2+pm... then go to meet jianhui , ahmei and xiao shan... after their lab test.. =) MeanwHIle waiting for her to reach....then proceed to play tennis =P haa.... wat a sporty day... i kana ant's bite whIle i pick the tennis ball frm the floor.. kaoz* ... mayb bcos of the hOT sun bah... she dun really play very well... she's tHose tat play nite sPOrts... haaa =P waiting for REmatCH again =P .. bleAh* .... same... rarely so happy again ... keke..... =)

all i wish for is another chance to restart a new zorpia with u...... /jj261203 (in fact... the password is wat i wish to tell u if u still remember) ... just let fate decide bah.... decision is urs... i rather be direct cos i dun wanna waste anymore time and miss anymore chance... alt i've already got no more chance.... haiz* still..... i noe its wrong to do so... haiz.. i dunno wat to do la... just hope u r happier with ur decision and choice... =) do take care...

BLog more tonite... going out with mama and papa now..
happy can liao bah =)... thanks once again...

jeff

2005-08-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

monday... happy day...... haa... so long nv so happy le... its just so happen tat i got to see her in the train early in the morning... haa... mayb fate bah... but our timing is always nt right...just like wat really happen in the past.... haiz.. hmmm...then evening i meet her + jianhui n sharon for dinner... enjoyable... haa.. craps alot... as usual.... =) dinner @ essential Brew (holland village) . i ate the fish n chips..... she only eat fruit salad... dotx.... but i hope she really enjoy herself and at the same time relax herself away from projects bah... after dinner.. sent her home.. walk her up the stairs.. like the past.. just somehOw a old man seems sneaky so walk her further more lor... haa.. just so nice tat b4 reaching her place we r hearing tHis song 'su you peng - xin fu yi wan nian' .. true bah... since im not the one.. i can't make it happen... all i can do is to see her happier each and everyday with hIm.. =) always hab my blessing.... * i guess the love is still there bah... not her but me.... i can forget yet i can't forgive myself for wat i've done... regretting is always too late =) most importantly is to learn frm mistake and not to let it happen again.... always tot she might b the one wearing wHIte in the church with me... haa.. dummy me.. =P anyway... move on bah...... As long as she's happy ... im happy for her too.... be nice to her!*~ ......
haaa... rarely type such long bloggy liao.... kk la... overall im really happy to see her todae... alt i skipped my bowling training and put my fren 747* ... haAa... paiseh la lester~.... nx week i go lor.....
*happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy**happy*

Thanks for the day~ i will tell u the secret* when the time is right.... haa* meanwhile provided u wun forget me~

Cherish*

jeff

2005-08-14T01:23:00.001+08:00

hmmmm... bowl quite badly for the friendly game... haiz.... been almost 3 weeks nv bowl.... ever since the STudy week.. somehOw i really feel like giving up bowling for the moment.. wHich oso means tat to give up going for sch and SPGG team training.. .. wHich surely make me not enough attendance to enter IVP team tHis yr..... haiz... such a tough decision to make... finAL yr liao.. i just feel like concentrate on my sTUdies and graduate fast... i really dunno hOw to give up bowling during tHese period... i really need someone to tOk to..... haiz...

jeff

2005-08-08T15:22:00.000+08:00

haa.. so long nv post liao... received lots of complaints from frens =X... paiseh la.. i dunno u all got read my blog blog de wor.. =X ... lately ar... bz studying and playing lor.... study for msT.. and i realise i didn't really do well for my Biomedical instrumentation.. mayb im not focus on studying bah... only get abt 60+ if not wrong... sianz ... todae didn't go sch ... sElf declare off so tat i will hab a long holiday =P haa.. aiyAh... heard tat shan gui is sick and even fainted yesterday wor... so ke lian... hope she get well soon bah... happy can liao*... haa.. hope everybody do well for their exams wor~.... =) meanwhile gonna start mugging hard liao.... haa =P i've just received a call from pauline... theres a return friendly match against other team bah... seletar country club i tHink... on the 13th wHich is tHis coming sat, 7pm.. hope i still can bowl well bah.... anyway... i needa catch back the feeling for bowling... nv touch it for quite sometime... haiz* i will be quite free these few days bah.. u guys feel free to ask me out lor... fRi is booKed for bowling training.. =) hee* im still wondering if i should meet up with adeline(tp) for the NDP fireworks anot... shy* haa... somemore so crowded.. haiz.... blog more soon bah*

jeff

2005-07-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

wat a BAd day... for no reason i feel hurt in my ankle.. nx moment i found out tat i've sprained my leg... IDIot~ todae then go seE sInseH... bandage my ankle n it LooKs like piG lEg... DAmm It~ yesterday still can gO play billard with them.. tot my ankle is better liao.. in the end reach hOme bcome worSE... Zzz.. i've been gOing sch to sTUdy all these wHIle ... every afternoon till evening then go hOme... damm tired... but just hope for gd graDes~ =P ..tml gonna CHiong WhOle day... it will be a damm tiring one.. haiz... i wish all of the SP EEE students all the best ..study hard..

jeff

2005-07-26T19:29:00.000+08:00

after yesterday , i realise tHings tat happen to gary might not b as bad if he can simply let go tHings like me.. haiz... sad to see a bro like tat.... in fact its nobody's fault. ... i dunno to really give up tHis time anot... haiz... now my only focus is to study hard bah.. frens r still the best and most impt =) .. All the best to student in SP having MST soon.. study hard and score well~.

jeff

2005-07-21T15:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went to sch just for tutorial.. then end sch liao go meet jianhui to test drive... afTer test driving the GEN2 (mt) we can conclude with one word "sux" haaa... then we go back to sch to somehow accompany 'Ninja turtle' and 'THE HONG' to study.. in the end they came out with a plate of fries with lots and lots of SALT in it.. haa.. didn't study much and we move off to wESt coast... having fun time playing the playground there.. a bunch of OLd poly students playing + taking photos... haa.. adventure*.. then came home to bathe.. meeting jianhui ,stanley,wilson and their GFs for dinner.. damm.. im so left out~ LOL*
tHis morning 4am++ then reach home.. we went to watch the race... then go arcade to drive outrUN2.... haaa.. sibei funny... ppl drive real car out there and we driving ferrari in the aRcade.. LOL*..

jeff

2005-07-17T19:13:00.000+08:00

somehow i get it clear tat she would rather me not even to start to go after her... i respect her deicision bah.. alt is sounds rather saddening... haa.. mayb get to know her better first b4 i decided everytHing bah... in fact everyTHing seems rather fast.... she just can't seems to let go of her past r/s.. still.. i just hope she stay happy always .. dun look back... i'll still b ur gd gd fren always even anything happen in future.. =) .. YawnzZ... i sLept at 5am and wake up at 9+am to study ... till now... super tired... kinda sTress up... even my mum ask me to go out... so rArE.. haa
still i thiNk i choose to study at home bah... ... tonite then continue to blog

jeff

2005-07-17T03:16:00.000+08:00

hmm... somehow she rejected me as a fren.. haiz.. she's the one who keeps MIA and now i just hope even if we can't be together at least a fren mah... everytHing seems to b my wrong.. sometimes i just dun understand y.. everytHing seems to b unsuccessful... after the r/s with candi.. i realise i shall not just rush into another r/s so soon... i met someone who is a fren of jianhui.. she's not tat attractive to me at all , when i first met her. after time it seems tat the character do seems alot like me.. i dare nt conclude tat she's the one ... and i need more time to noe her more... therefore i sms her and somehOw do tell her abt it.. as frm her reply i dun really now how she feel.. aiyah.. just hope tHings just goes smoothly even as a fren or wateva in future.. =) .. as for junting... thanks for being my close fren .. i appreciate it =) .. alot of unhappy stuff do happen lately.. i didn't really share it with anyone.. surprise tat u noe wat happen to russ.. haiz.. not gonna let all these bother me so much now... as wat i've promised myself.. i will study hard frm TODAY onwards till the end of MST and get the best result i can ever archieve so as nt to disappoint my parents... i will be MIA for the 2 weeks + and hope u frens will understand.. im still contactable if u all wish to study together...

when theres happiness theres always sadness.. one thing to remain is the happy memories.

jeff

2005-06-29T20:35:00.000+08:00

hmm.. had a enjoyable 2 weeks.. sry i can only do all these... hope u will be happier now.. take care.. study hard bah.... i tot we could last... doesn't matter bah its the past.. look forward and move on =) sianz.. tml long sch day again sux...... so cold now... rainy nite... anyway im going off to meet my fren @ tiong bahru for a drink and chat bah.. life just sux... so many problems and i jsut need a pair of listening ear... anyway just to clarify i got nth to do with anyone.. tHink wateva u all like... im just someone not worth being with... =) single life is still much suitable for me.. im tried of trying... do take care everyone ..

ps: meishi ... nx time bah... mayb after my mid semester test.. kinda stressed up over my sch stuff and r/s.

candi: sorry and thanks for the 2 wks.

jeff

2005-06-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

hmm.. quite sometime nv blog le.. haa.. anyway.. todae i was late for my leCture again.. Zzzz ... can't slp well last nite.. got alot of mosquitoes leh.. 4am wake up just to whack them.. early in the morning 8am got to reached sch.. but i wake up at 7:55am. in the end reach sch ard 8:45am just to take attendance.. ETS lecture end early.. so went to the basketball court with afew of my fellow classmates. after bball continue go back for ETS lab practical.. kaoz.. even lab oso end early.. so go back to bball court to play again lor.. i was glad tat the other group of my classmate did try to interact with me.. so somehow we still got communicate lor.. =) rather than the whole year long sticking with only some of my other frens... they r not tat bad afterall .. =) after sch i went to Fc 4 with desman/zao cheng and those other frens.. alot of mei mei!~~!~! haaa.. but hor.. all wear like going to the hungry ghost festival singing stage like tat.. Zzz.. yr 1 needa wear till like tat meh?? see liao jiu sianz... haa.. -.-" .. then take train back home lor... tml still gonna bowl for league... abit kinda no mood.. b4 the league i still gonna go for the final yr project meeting ... then after tat meet candi go out ... long day for me... wateva.. im gonna go draw my "11 body system diagram" now le... 7 more to go~ haa... im dead.. tml gonna handup.. if got extra time i will draw some other stuff.. and post either here or in my friendster.. just look out for it more.. mostly should b tonite.. =P

jeff

2005-06-07T15:13:00.000+08:00

Single & Available. =)

jeff

2005-05-31T12:32:00.000+08:00

jeff

2005-05-30T15:13:00.000+08:00

hmm.... quite long nv update le.. haa.. anyway all these while during the holiday i've been spending most of my time with her.. she came over to join my family gather on saturday.. quite memorable.. =) first time meet my parents.. and so scared of my dog... haa.. anyway.. todae is my first day of sch... sch reopen le!~ take train got meimei to sEE!~ haa.. got quite afew babes ..haa.. but as usual la... first day of sch normally got nth to do.. but lecture start for Biomedical Instrumentation le.. hmm.. and i started slacking once again.. haiz.. must force myself to work hard tHis yr.. final yr le~! =P

haa.. lastly "will miss u de". =X u should noe who u r.

jeff

2005-05-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

haiz.. tot todae will be a better day after we chatted so much on phone last nite.. she even msg me with her own initiative.. im kinda happy .. but yet.. i realise things ain't as happy as it is bah.. tot of bringing her out together with my family to ECP together with cedric and his gf.. yet she's lazy just to meet me even i bother to go over to pick her.. somehow mayb its another hint for me to give up everything soon bah.. haiz* im utterly disappointed by her sms telling me tat she's lazy.. guess im just nothing ... take care bah.. im going rounding soon.. not bringing my hp so as not to get anymore upset and hurting sms frm anyone now.. i just need sometime to calm down.. on the way back from redhill just now i drove pretty recklessly... haiz.. saw a group of lousy modified kia car.. got sound cannot zao.. like shit like tat ... drop 2 gear say bye bye to them le.. haiz... mayb tats me bah.. bad mood = drive fast + reckless. thanks huiwen for ur company just now.. and oso for the drink ... like wat u've said.. mayb it wun even last 3 mths.. haiz... im tired.. really very tired.. but i really wish to hold on.. i just dunno y but my feelings tell me to..

jeff

2005-05-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

hmm.. quite a tiring day.. sorry tat i kinda attitude u the day b4... im wrong.. sorry. im worried and was wondering if u will forgive me anot.. so didnt get to slp much.. im kinda grateful to hab u as my gf.. thanks for ur understanding and support.. and i promise such tHings wun happen again... in fact i didn't really enjoy the movie..cos its so crappy =X.. but still at least im happy to accompany u .. like wat i've said.. we didn't really progress as fast as compared to my past relationship.. but frm here i've learnt how to cherish u and the relationship more.. weird hor .. haa... =P one wk le leh and finally got a fatty hand to hold =X.. haa dun expect much la.. but still i hope wateva i do for u and whenever we r together u will stay happy always =)
i realise something common for all my ex gf sms me . "drive carefully ar.. dun speed ~" .. dotx*

As for the BBQ later... i wun be going bah... cos no pt going there just to say hi and bye.. most prob i will stay at home and rest... lately not enough rest... guess i wun b meeting u till nx week bah.. man man lai... and by the way as for those competition and bowling stuff i shall just leave it as it is.. got then bowl dun hab dun bowl lor.. they wanna jio then jio dun want nvm de.. =) since someone is kinda cHildish to even imply "dun fren u le" just bcos he/she dun realise or nv regret for wat he/she did.. theres no pt tOking oso.. so i've blocked tat particular person.. if u noe who u r..stop wasting the effort to bother me.. cos its real piss off and irritates me when im playing my game and oso to realise someone who is toking rubbish.. eg. "no one can force me to do wateva i dun wish to do" .. nx moment say "its her who keep asking me to sms u de". haa.. isn't tat force? i oso dunno wat u trying to imply and can't b bothered... too contridicting & lame =P

for those who is having attachment ... junting / kwang hong / qiuyun / jieqi .. etc.. work hard and use ur pay to treat me for a nice meal!~ haaa =X ..

lastly.. sorry dear... love ya ..

jeff

2005-05-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

if u still do tHink tat u r right i really feel tat i've know the wrong person.. and i regret knowing such person.. During the cruise i was happily enjoying my day.. b4 the cruise reach habourfront dock i already received multiple sms regard if i can go over and pick u all and etc.. im staying in East.. the competition ground is in eAst too.. yet dun u all find its far too much for me to travel all the way to west like and idiot just to bring u all to NSRCC? hey.. theres always a limit for everyTHing.. dun take tHings for granted lor... firstly u r not even my gf.. 2ndly i nv owe u anytHing... dun give me all the shit... y not ask urself y theres not even a sms when u all r bowling in SPGG.. boh jio right? when need transport can keep smsing... pls lor.. if u tHink tHis is wat a fren should do.. y not u try it?? u r not much older either.. dun claim tat u noe alot.. and u have seen alot.. craps.. this kinda tHings cannot b compared.. and dun ask ppl to wisen up.. im just acting like a fool i admit... fool to let u and most of the frens take advantage of...

anyway... sorry for telling u all my problems.. haiz.. and i appreciate u for listening.. hugz* tml we go watch movie le.. yeah... =) miss u*

jeff

2005-05-16T01:56:00.000+08:00

haiz... sad ar... got to noe tat i saturday still needa go sch i already sianz `1/2.. somemore guess im the only odd one tat choose biomedical engineering bah.. haiz* my time table is out already...u all can view it from

http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y135/jeffz21/timetable.jpg

anyway.. todae didn't bowl well... but in learning mood bah.. just feeling so sick and headache.. sianz sianz sianz..... final yr liao... still gib me tHis kinda timetable.. arghh....3B26 .. wat a stupid class... hope brother bear and those ppl r not in my class... during yr 2 we already nv tok for a yr liao.. if now they enter my class i got no one to tok to.. somemore i will b bored to death... gOd pls save me~ and i really hope her timetable wun b so stress bah.. cos she heard frm her fren tat her timetable will b very packed.. and oso hope we got time to meet up at least once per week bah.. cos my stupid saturday will b spending in sch..~! FINAL YR PROJECT I HATE U!~ y take my favourite SATURDAY!~?

jeff

2005-05-14T18:25:00.000+08:00

dunno y just feel kinda bothered by sometHing bah.. stupid dad gib me his farking attitude for no reason.. see liao oso sianz... sometimes parents only noe how to blame but not apologise bah.. My mum will but my dad nv.. its like ending his life like tat.... so he's always right... this kinda stupid life in this family i oso sianz liao.. it seems tat wateva u do oso wrong... really do feel like moving out.. but just somehow just bcos of one person i might hurt my mum's feelings... haiz.. now im the only guy in the house after since my bro passed away... haiz* feel like going for the evo 9 showcase at kallang with jianhui , wilson ..etc.. but in the end i decided to stay at home .. nv go out with her.. cos she's meeting her fren.. so hope she enjoy her shopping and oso kinda worried for her diet... haiz* haiz* y y y~!? dunno la... gonna go bowl tonite .. better bowl till my thumb injuired again....... sux.... haiz.... really no mood * sorry

2005-05-14T02:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. come back frm cruise .. kinda tired.. .. somemore bring the honda to change tyres once reaching home .. .. after tat went over to bugis area to pick her.. but her work place seems kinda ulu ulu(unknown) to me.. haa.. so gonna trouble her to come over to find me... kinda happy to see her.. but somehow she seems tired.. we both did really tok much.. .. i drove her to the usual place where we always eat prata.. haa.. as usual.. didn't get good parking lot.. wateva.. tats not the point.. somehow i just feel tat theres this gap between me and her bah... in fact i really not sure if im her bf anot.. guess most of my ex gfs r kinda close to me bah.. not in physical but in terms of proudness they r proud to b with me and really do regard me as their bf bah.. not comparing wat they did for me to wat u did for me..cos its unfair for u.. and i nv ask for anything in return.. u happy can le bah...

after sending her home in rush.. i speed all the way to NSRCC.. just in time for me.. phew* just pray hope tat theres no speeding cameras ard ... didn't really bowl well.. for 3 games of 8 pin tap. (230,180,187) for 3 games of 9 pin tap (140,167,177) total pinfall (1081). gosh .... i didn't do well but dunno y just still feel happy.. most prob is bcos i just met her not long... haa.. haiz* somehow i oso dunno how to tell u things... im really happy tat u do care in the sms and etc.. but somehow when we meet.. feelings seems so different.. mayb it takes time bah.. man man lai lor..
im glad to hear tat u wanna ask me out.. seriously mayb i do like gals with more initiative bah.. in another words im lazy .. but i really do feel tired of asking sometimes... (the actual reason y i wish to send u back instead of just meeting u for dinner is bcos i really miss u alot)

all i wish is u to b happy and feel relax instead of tense up .... currently didn't really tell alot of ppl abt us... cos it seems tat u prefer it to b silent. dun need u to change for me...

sorry to type so much cos im not in sg these few days.. i really miss everyone ard.. keeP in tOuch~ staRT sms me~! ask me out!~.. i might not drive but i can still take MRT~! =P bleah..

jeff

2005-05-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

hmm... yesterday went watching movie with her.. haa. the show is disgusting only.. storyline soso lor not very fantastic la.. so all the movie maker better buck up to satisfy both of us la~ lol* then after tat went to fong sheng to eat.. not much mei mei to see.. haa * but got her is enough la =P bleah* im happy the moments we spend together.. not long and it might seems kinda rush.. but i really thanks u for accepting me.. no worry if i see xiao mei mei nx time i will ask u along~ =x haa... then as for u... just do anytHing u like bah =P .. ya~ even u dui wo bu hao.. i oso will dui ni hao hao~ nv ask anything in return frm u.. just hope both of us can b happier together.. hugz* im going for a 3 days 2 nite cruise le.. will b missing u lotZ~.. take care wor.. watch ur diet .. =)

jeff

2005-05-07T17:42:00.000+08:00

hmm.. wake up damm early in the morning to prepare and go all the way to "star bowl" . nice oiling.. i like the lane oil condition. but didn't really bowl well... first game at least we r at the Top 8 list... then keep droping game after game... haiz.. .so sianz de... but i like the way "chaos" hook/snap into the pocket todae... stunning shot. haa* but i still prefer "bully" bah.. more impact on the pins.... by the way i realise tat theres crack somewhere near my finger insert on the bully.. sadDening~issit a hint for me to buy new ball? lol.... after the game i sent pat,alvin & neo lili to PS b4 i go home.. then reach home liao play gb then fell asleep then wake up play again lor
really no mood.

jeff

2005-05-07T00:07:00.002+08:00

haa.. watched 2 movie in a day.. its killing my eyes~! anyway.. thanks cheryl for the movie. as for pang pang .. thanks wor.. i oso duno the movie is so boring.. lol* kinda sorry to see u so tired =X anyway nx time we go some place with hunks and babes better.. hAaa* OH YA~.. MEiSHI HAppy bdAY wor..... i meet u later in the nite for ur celebration.. open bottle of cos i will drink de =P.. no worry.. anyway.. later early morning abt 9:20am i got bowling competition at kimseng bowl organise by NUS.. dun think can bowl well but go there to gain experience bah.. afterall watever we do more or less must put in effort and confident ~ =P happy day cos at least i got to date thiS pang pang out.. haa.. but tiring .. wash car b4 going out... then rain heavily when i go out.. waste my effort... i need new tyres~! i wanna do cornering i wanna pick up fast i wanna drive even fasTER!~..

wain: i asked ur sister not to wake u up bah.. u rest more.. take care ar.. see doc if u still feel unwell. anything gib me a call/sms k? dun apologise la.. i just dun wish to disturb u .. =) hope u hab a nice day and sweetdreams.

jeff

2005-05-07T00:07:00.001+08:00

jeff

2005-05-05T12:22:00.000+08:00

hmm.. todae result out... i didn't really get all the good grades... but i manage to clear all modules and proceed to yr 3.. a new yr to struggle i guess~ most of my classmates r promoted to yr 3 too but so far only mugu failed 2 of his modules.... studying is not easy... everyone must put in effort to do well bah... only when u put in effort .. the outcome is much possible to b the one u expect~
pam , wp , jiaxin , pang pang , alvin , patrick etc... im happy for u all too =P anyway.. somehow my mood dun seems happy still bah... haiz.. as a fren i feel kinda sad for u... for ur result.. or mayb its wat i caused... mayb its my fault... or wateva.. it seems tat im blaming myself for tat. haiz... just hope u do study hard and work harder bah.. he's in tp got supp. paper available.. but we r in sp.. really hope u dun neglect ur studies and all the best.. anything u can gib me a call or sms me.. if u do blame me ... im really sorry u can scold shout scream curse at me wateva u want.. but i hope u understand... im still ur fren. anyway im meeting pam for late lunch + dinner later bah.. not bowling tonite.. dun hab to mood too.. going for cruise nx week.. im gonna miss u all~ .. but most importantly now i gonna concentrate on my saturday bowling at kimseng bowl (nus invitation bowl). and oso sunday got training at SPgg .. its a so call "selection". really hope i do well too.

for those doing itP and ppl preparing for FO camp .. i hope u all do well and all the best...

esp . ben ben , pang pang , tingz , yun ... etc...

wain.. : rest more... get well soon...

linda.. : good luck and all the best.. do well for ur coming exams =)

xiumei..: study hard for ur coming exams k? all the best

jeff

2005-05-02T15:13:00.000+08:00

i've changed my style of release..yeah more relaxing but the ball just dun rev as much... once the ball hit the pocket it dun follow thru~ damm.. gonna improve more on that.. haiz* guess all i can concentrate on is my bowling now bah.. there's happy and unhappy times... i will not hold back but move on.. todae is a public holiday... yet everybody ard me seems to bz ... so i dare not ask ppl out.. scare disturb them.. just saw " 1st Brunswick Collegiate League 2005 " frm spbowler website.. wondering who is interested... its on Sunday ... the day after NUS invitation bowling~.
which SAT morning go kimseng bowl...then sunday still needa bowl ..haa.. and oso sunday if going for 1st Brunswick Collegiate League 2005 after tat still gonna go back to SPGG to bowl for the training~ damm... whole weekend is all abt bowling~ where's my life!~? wah lau... pam play me ar... say i nv open my mouth ask ppl out of cos no ppl will go out with me la... so i asked her ... she say "wan! lol" .. bad thing is she's meeting her fren liao.. sianz 1/2 .. see how tml lor... i oso dunno where to go and wat to do... so sianz~ just not bowling can le.. i haven't clear the internal blood clot on my thumb yet.. i shall blog more tonite if im free bah...

zorpia

jeff

2005-05-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

patrick was injuired from yesterday's game... so i was taking his place to bowl todae for the friendly match against pin energy.. my team : suzana,edmund,me,someone else.. spgg team 5.. first round we lose to them... 2nd and the 3rd round we pick up all the pins and won .. overall pts 4-1. but overall with the other teams... spgg team lose to pin energy by 17-8 pts.. such a bad game~ i didn't really did my best... kinda distracted by those ppl with loud voices when im standing on the approach... damm it~. im easily distracted by opponent's players... but i like to b distracted by frens... they can keep me away frm stressful thinking and frm there i can bowl well.... anyway... its over.. dun think abt it le... tml is public holiday... wondering who is going to date me?~! im boreD.... come come ask me out... im super free tml... sms me..call me ...msg me...etc... haiz.....
anyway... i hope patrick recover soon.~ bowler ruleZ~ but hook bowler still better.. lol*

i believe i can do better everytime i bowl.. i will not give up even till the last frame.

jeff

2005-04-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

..so sorry .. i really think alot and i dunno wat i want... i dun think u needa wait for me now... its unfair for u... im sorry.. haiz... hope we r still friends... now i only wanna concentrate on my bowling.... relationship... mayb later... im really happy these few days we r together..but im just too scare of everything now..mayb bcos of wat happened to me in the past... hope u saw my thumb yesterday... when im unhappy i dun even feel those pain... when im unhappy or trouble i drove fast.... etc... just hope u understand tat im oso kinda feel bad to b with u for just such a short period... but to b fair to u.. i really hope u can get someone better than me bah.. haiz.... u can just scold me or wateva... just so sorry abt everything... mayb i just can't forget the past...or mayb i dun even noe how to start a new relationship.... cos i seems to b dead... no feeling...can't give anything to u... every every everything is just so unfair and unhappy ... im single and available.. but not anyone seems to fit the place.... im just waiting for the right person...
i wish u all the best.. its not ur fault... dun blame urself... u r nice to me..and im thankful... sorry.*

jeff

2005-04-28T02:15:00.000+08:00

i sleep till 2pm then wake up~ lol... then online play games and chat with frens lor... till abt 5+ i went over to dear's place to pick her up...since we decided to meet up... but i got to play league todae so she tag along lor... wei qu le ta.... dui bu qi... bowl quite alright la... get back abit of my skill... without handicap at least 150 average bah...... anyway.... quite happy lor... at least i get back the feeling for bowling.... and i wun give it up.... then after tat send dear home since she look so tired.. but forgotten tat she havent' had her dinner.... haiz...wat a stupid bf i am... so sorry... dun break my arm pls... lol* ok la..tats all for yesterday... todae just started.. and im going to hab my nice rest first... lol... blog more tml when i wake up bah... nite nite*

jeff

2005-04-26T17:26:00.000+08:00

hmm... lately go out till quite late then come home...so nv really blog much.. nth much happen..still as happy... meeting gf and going out with pals~ lol.. yesterday dear dear specially take cab frm her place over to my place to meet me... waste money...~ but i like~ lol.. cos i miss u too~ =X dun neglect ur studies ar... always like tat come meet me is very tiring de lor~ ... =P make a deal~ meet 2 times a week enough =P or once oso can ..hee* anyway... dear and me together with jianhui and sharon went to mount faber to chill out~ cooling place ... but alot of mosquitoes... lol.. hmmm... after send dear home, i went over to jianhui's place for some games~ lol* fun game but adictive... i dun really like gambling la... but playing small betting still ok... after playing for hours... i lose $3.60 and jianhui lose abt $6. only sharon and wilson won some money~ lol.. its just to spend my time bah... =P then lately saw junting's msn nick seems unhappy..wondering should i show concern as a fren anot.. one hand i scare my dear anyhow think of misunderstand me.. another.. i scare she still dun take me as a fren... but in the end i sms her to ask her wats wrong.. and she just merely say nth much already .. ok now.. and thanks for my concern. hope so bah... hee*

this coming sunday got bowling friendly match against other club

( sorry dear.. i can only meet u in the day.)

nx saturday got NUS invitation bowling~... + meishi bday~
bday gal.... wat gift do u want? im not rich but pls ask for something cheap and useful la~ nv ask means no present~

jeff

2005-04-24T14:01:00.000+08:00

i dun even noe how to start... haiz... yesterday went to bowl at nite ...alen is working~ bowl quite ok..just tat no skin patch.... slightly injuired my thumb again... hope i can bowl well for todae training bah.~tok to my gf abt our problems.... tok nicely and understanding is the best way to solve the problems bah~ =P anyway... i sms tat ben ben .... glad to hear tat she's doing fine~ .. i came online n saw alvin/meishi/yunnie online...chatted with them.

Alvin : i hope u really dun gib up on ur bowling... we r buddy~ lets excel together~

meishi: i do still regard u as a fren even tho' u dun anymore... just hope u dun gib up on urself.. i do wish to b there for u.. but tats the limit as a fren bah.. i can only advise...listen and help here and there abit... once u gib up on urself theres no pt me or ur other frens care for u.... bcos only u can decide ur life ~ do give me a ring or sms if u still regard me as a fren in future... like wat u've told me i gave things up easily.... i agree but i dun wish to lose a fren.

yunnie: paiseh .. i really no mood to go play gB..mayb later... alot of stuff for me to think to do oso... haiz... thanks for the song ~ i appreciate it... yeah` u r true to b there whenever i need someone to tok to~ thanks pal.

ben ben: my life seems to b xinfu to u... ya indeed im happy to hab a gf like her... im happy and i dun ask for anything more... and i wun forget u my fren~ in the past i always tell u my problems... and u can tell me ur problems too.. just dun keep it to ur self if u regard me as ur fren.. =) like wat i've told u in the past... i wun ask for anything in return... as long as i see all of u frens r happy~

jeff

2005-04-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

happy~.. went to tm to watch cREep.. the show isn't tat nice la..just very er xin.. me and dear dear see liao keep covering our eyes.. lol.... but b4 the movie i played time crisis 2.. lol.. so long nv play le... xian chou le.. =X didn't complete... haa .. anyway... after the movie we went to SPGG... and tat neo li li tag along like a lightbulb asking me to send her to the nearest mrt station... after sending her to her destination.. dear dear and me went to ayer rajar food centre..which is so close to her place lor.. yet she nv been there b4.. haa* anyway...we ate ba chor mee~ not bad la... just tat we r having hard time using chopsticks.. after the meal i send dear dear back le..quite late...somemore tml she still got sch... anyway... thanks for wat u did.. i like it alot~ to ppl it might seems girlish but i appreciate it... so far i only count 21... nvm i tml count again...... hee* u noe hor...when im driving... i put safety belt for the present* lol... cos u say fragile mah... =X it works~ i played with celica... lol.... quite slow leh his car...... =X hee* after reaching meishi house we went over to jimmy place and then go for our supper lor.. i just reach home not long..gonna sleep soon.... dear dear ... thanks for the day and ur present ~ muacks* love ya.~ anyway... i dun mean to tell u abt my past la.. but i dun wish to hide either... and seriously i only do hab u in my heart.. no other gals ~ =) trust me k? ai si ni le~

jeff

2005-04-21T17:01:00.000+08:00

haiz... bad day again... my 160Gb hdd crash le..... haiz..all my mp3s all my anime and documents all gone~ SAD aR!~ haiz... i hate it.... tat 160Gb hdd is something tat's left behind by my brother... haiz.. replacing it is easy... but the files r gone..the memories r gone too ... i got such a screw up day ..... haiz ... lifespan is up guess nth i could do to save the data inside bah.. unless recovery hdd lor.. sianz de ....

dear dear is still in sch... dunno how she fair for her test later... anyway.. good luck~ i dun wish to sms u this small matter cos i dun wish to affect u ..mayb u come back home and read this blog u noe y im so sianz and unhappy le.... haiz.. anyway im missing u.... get to meet later soon...~
sorry ar.. really no mood..

hmmm.. now waiting for dear to sms me when she reach bedok..then go tm watch creep~ lol.. =)

jeff

2005-04-20T14:30:00.000+08:00

wah..early in the morning i've received sms frm dear dear.. lol~ so sweet~ hugz* hee.. then i slack on my bed awhile more ...wake up face the PC eat my lunch and play GB lor.... nth much... dear todae got role play stuff... hope she's doing fine~ anyway... i miss u too~ haa* nvm...tml can meet le... haiz... so sianz.... yesterday went out supper with jimmy and meishi xiao jie. went geylang to makan and we saw ferrari.. diao~ such a car appear in tat area.... no comments* lol. we sat there toking abt plans on every saturday ...our chillout location and etc... and our mei shi xiao jie bday's coming close... dunno wat she wanna do on tat day oso.. hmmm.. yesterday drove without spect...damm.. i barely see ppl crossing the road lor...after sending them back... i took kembangan back home...speed abt 160+.. suddenly this guy just cross the road lor. heng bside got no car... else i can't avoid him... Zzz... damm these ppl make me angry *

jeff

2005-04-19T11:42:00.000+08:00

hmm... we take the first step to start afresh.... and i hope this will go smoothly always. forget abt wats going on 2 yrs ago. =P hugz* guess we wun meet as often oso.. bcos jimmy la~ my design satisfy ur desire anot? lol... haaa must appreciate it leh... seriously i think its too complicated for normal ppl to understand the logo bah.. but since u r my boss now u decide bah... really J A N this 3 alphaberts sound so girlish lor... =x hard to make it stylish and let ppl tot its own by 3 man lor.. lol. 3 girls more like it. =x

girl ar~ wo hao xiang ni ar...... nvm.. i meet u either on thur or when im having bowling training bah.... endure. =P hmmm..... design design + GB GB ...damm where hab my inspiration gone to?~ creativity is not to b understand but to feel..... i need not let u all understand wat im drawing or designing... but i need support and comments~ i go play with my russ le.... neglect him. =x

dun compare urself with others.. always trust urself.. and me~

hugz*

jeff

2005-04-18T14:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday: went swimming with jimmy.. lol first time sitting on his skipper... funny .. i tink i still prefer ur GSX.. faster change back la... anyway we swim for only 1 hr + cos theres alot of ppl.. and i realise im lighter than him. =x or rather i've been decreasing weight during the unhappy moments bah... now 48 kg only...haiz* then i reach home liao proceed straight to bowling in SPGG... too long nv bowl liao..can't catch back the line and did really get direct pocket. lol. need more training bah.. anyway.. after tat i meet girl n her fren. we went to holland V TCC. chillout lor... then send her home follow by her fren. and i got to noe tat im her first ex bf... hmm.. thinking back..2 yrs ago.. we r so happy together lol.. but now we r still frens .... nv forgotten each other still~ who noes we might b back eventually? ..wateva.. just shun qi zhi ran for this kinda relationship stuff bah..

Today: i stick to my com... do designing for jimmy.. just a draft sketch bah.. i dun think it looks great either. ...too artistic to b a logo.. lol... not everybody got artistic mind like me de wor.. so i dun mind if u cann see the alphaberts from the drawings. (i will edit more till ur expectation) .. anyway.. i played GB with elm... i sms yun/adeline & of cos her(for the last time).... wishing them good day and hope they dun b freak out by their ITP~ lol. i've been thru it.. tough time... but i learn alot. anyway... im doing fine and better~ thanks for u guy's concern all these while~ i appreciate it~ =P who wants me~?? im urs~ lol... provided u all can TENG wor.... can b serious in relationship .. haa* =X i no longer hold any feelings for her or anyone... but just somehow feel bad to lose a fren..anyway its not up to my control either.. hee*

girl ar girl... sorry abt 2 yrs ago... but im really glad that we r still frens. =) meet once a yr right? lol.. but this yr break record liao.. meet 2 times.. lol.. =)

hmm.. thinking of the ben ben now... wondering wat she's doing~? lol. must b slacking like a pig.

jeff

2005-04-18T14:32:00.000+08:00

jeff

2005-04-17T10:16:00.000+08:00

hmm... yesterday went out with yun after we finish playing gunbound... daMM...the rain is so heavy... lol... we went to queensway to collect her spect...then i pei her to suntec hab her dinner.. i watch her eat lor~ so ke lian* lol. then after tat send her to MRT station before going off to meet my poly frens for gathering dinner.. its so weird bah.... or rather its fate ... just nice jt was there with her group of frens... and they saw my poly frens b4 i reached.... and when i was driving just so sudden i saw them(poly frens only). i slow down to chat with them awhile...then i went to park my car... during the dinner i got to noe frm frens tat - jt & her frens turn away immediately once they saw me. dotx... wat the hell... if frens r meant to b avoided y b frens? i've did my part and given her wat she wanted..... and yet it still seems to b my wrong .. my ben ben told me to give her sometimes to get over it... but seriously..... im doing wat she want and even let go of the relationship just bcos i feel she will b happier with him now~. haiz...wateva... then after dinner at marina south i went over to jimmy's place to pick him and meishi... we went to chill out at boat quay.. damm... all 3 of us seems to b dead.. lots of problems... jimmy is still thinking of "her".... meishi tat problem i oso got nth much to comments on... as for my case... jimmy and meishi feel tat i give up too easily instead of finding ways to win her back... omG~ Once the person is no longer thinking and loving u.. no matter how hard u try its still wun works.... ya... i did my part... and i realise im wrong to msg tat guy and tell him to take care of her and etc.... im not treating u as a ball passing ard... or rather all i hope for is just ur happiness. "ya i do admit i still do love u... but things r different... u can't even accept me as a fren... wat else can i say?" ... aftEr drinking... i drove them ard...and we went to west coast park.... tok alot alot.. after tat send them home b4 i go home lor. reached home at 6am wake up at 8am.. i dun even noe wat kinda life am i living..

if u think tat i forgotten u easily/give up the relationship too easily.. u r wrong.

i would rather choose to wait silently and smile for u when u r happy.

i didn't ask u for anything in return and i dun need it either.

somehow its already not possible to even b frens.... but im still bothered by the matter

bcos i care.

(more to blog later..gonna go out early in the morning).

(jimmy, gib me a call when u r ready to swim later i still got bowling training after tat).

jeff

2005-04-16T03:06:00.000+08:00

hmm... fine day i guess... lol... i slack the whole afternoon and went out at nite with girl. but b4 tat i went to sPgg to get the feel back.. lol.. omG i miss bowling alley alot... lol.. after bowling i went over to clementi to pick girl.. and we proceed to town for our movie... didn't get to buy an earlier show ...so we watch 11:25pm show.. to my surprise junting was watching movie there with her frens too. mayb i was too worried for her bah..msg her nv reply.. tot wats wrong.. and i realise i think too much and care too much le. .. girl and me went walking ard orchard toking abt wats going on during the one yr... lol.. alot to tok abt bah... then after tat we went to COkE, red lounge which is located at cineleisure... slack till movie start lor... and after movie i got to noe tat junting went to MS with her frens bah... her first time there and ya... kinda worried.. but ya.. i did offer a ride for her to go home fast.. but she rejected it over and over again.. so i really gave up worrying for someone who dun needs it bah... after sending girl girl home.. i stop my car by the road shoulder calling junting...and got to noe she's home... relieve finally*. and i sms girl asking if she reached home already anot... at least she replied asap so as not to let me worry for her. anyway... i gonna thanks u for tat day too.. i felt much better and im ready to let go.....just do it step by step bah.... anyway.... all she need is just not to let him worried... obviously wats the pt of me b nosy. like wat she told her frens all the while .. sometimes when u care..the person just take it for granted.. im not the person who ask for anything in return.. but someone who do tried my best to protect/care and love for the right person. theres no regrets for wat i've done till now bah... just leave it and get on with my life. i will soon stand up after the fall.

jeff

2005-04-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

wateva... i've tried so hard to hide since tat time we broke off.. i've said all out todae...wat a relieve...thinking tat she might understand... but doesn't matter anymore bah... she's already with him... all the best bah.. i did something stupid... which is msg tat guy friendly and ask him to b nice to her and take good care of all..and all the best~ ..wat a stupid fool i am.. wateva.. but i really hope she's happier with him bah... sorry abt wat i've told u just now... might b a lie and it might b true... i will try hard to gib up and move on... attached or not is sooner or later stuff which i dare not look into it.. sorry to disturb u studying oso... haiz... things just always came at the wrong timing bah... anyway... hope u do well for ur paper tml..after tml i wun b hoping or doing anything for u le bah... guess all u can hab is my blessing~ he will do the rest for u. thanks jieqi for ur support and qiuyun for ur understanding.. but im really ok le la..tat time i left i oso took so such a hard time not to think abt it. till now already more than 3 mths le bah.. i will walk out of the darkness.. man man yi bu yi bu lai... worrying for her.... but i trust tat guy will treat her better.. =) she's no longer any small kid oso.. hee* ok bah... let go and move on~! ... new day~ gonna bowl later and meet xiu mei.~ kinda long nv see her le... hope she's doing fine too...

haiz.... morning liao...so fast... i've wish her luck and yup..guess tats all i can do. all these while i've already did wateva i can.. even to forgive and forget. guess it will no longer b there anymore... i've tried the 4 bowling balls tat i nv touched for a mth i think. it fits... but ..when i tried the backswing theres pressure exerting on my "new skin" on my thumb. it hurts..... and it oso hurts to see the blood stain in the thumb hole.... haiz... gonna train hard train well and train till i forgotten everything eventually bah.. i dun even noe how long it will takes.... i hope i can focus on the targeting board soon...instead of ball releasing moodily & aimlessly... train till my wrist is broken... till my arm is broken i will still try to struggle~ hope u understand i've no choice but to live with a lie tat time.. haiz* wateva.. listen to jerry's songs... in the past the song is nice but nv notice the lyrics... now.. it matters.....haiz

3 things im thinking of now :
"wats mine = mine...wats not meant to b mine.. i will nv force it" by everyone tats kan de kai*
"things dun always come at the correct timing, grab it or u will miss it." by jeff*
" =( stuff happens usually means there's gonna b =) things happening soon , bcos life is unfair tats y must make u =( 1st b4 =)." by ben ben*

2005-04-14T09:02:00.000+08:00

haiz..later 2pm will b my last paper liao... hope i can do well bah... haven't even started studying..g0nna go sch and revise later.... not bad... i started to dream liao...mayb bcos of the influence of tat ben ben~. LOL* i dreamt tat i was back to waterpolo team with bedok/clementi SSA team. zhining/dixon/ah poh/etc etc... alot of the long time no see playERs~ lol.. wondering how they r now. mayb just bcos im too stress in the past bah..tats y didn't get to remember dreams or dun even dream at all. hope life would b better for both of us now bah...i'll b there if u need my help or someone to tok to.. just come and find me if theres any need bah.

My coming plan for 3 days.

friday - morning till evening free(available)... nite time meeting xiumei for movie.
saturday - morning till nite time free(available) very very late : meet jimmy to celebrate his bday together with meishi and etc.
sunday - morning & afternoon (available) evening gonna go back to SPGG for the training for national league i guess. selecTEd~ happy... hope this time dun bowl till bleed~

anyone out there want to meet me just let me noe.. im very free recently.

upcoming plans : swimming and bowling will take up even more time.

12 more days... haiz.. i doubt she will remember it either....

my paper still alright la...

jeff

2005-04-13T17:43:00.000+08:00

one more paper to go.. MCPCT programming base module... sux... todae maths i did badly... i doubt will b able to pass..hope for just at least 45 marks for tat paper...so i can pass the whole module.. haiz..... lately really no mood to study.. guess things just dun always happen at the right timing bah... firstly i tried to think of giving chance... when she ask for it... and when i gib it..she no longer need it anymore.... and worse...exam period i got to noe she's trying to gib him chances...haiz... guess its fated bah... move on is the only choice i've left....
struggle hard to cope with my stupid fate and the last stupid paper now..... i dun think i should worry for her now since she's with someone better... hope u dun get sick bcos of the rain.. and hope u do well for ur friday paper bah.....
xuefeng /qiuyun and afew of my frens finished their papers le...haiz..good for u all bah.... bless me bah... i guess im dying soon... sux.

jeff

tuesday...2 more paper...

2005-04-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

yesterday paper alright la..should b easy to get 5 marks la..but to wait for a fren i tried to stay longer and do more... then in the end i cannot tahan liao come out alone... guess i really got no mood to do tat paper bah...haiz.. anyway... i reached home liao i play gB for awhile... after playing i went over to "her" place to pass her something i owe her. which i dun wish to drag this on. really hope for her happiness with him bah... then on the way back theres this f**ker tat speed from my blindspot.. almost knock onto me... he's just a P plate. mayb just bcos im driving altis bah.. dun wish to waste petrol + i really no mood to play with those idiots. i've given her my words and i mean it. as long as u r happy im happy for u. =) .. then todae just wake up... so late.. lol..mayb just forcing myself not to wake up early so wun think so much bah... a new day a new beginning~ yeah~? study bah... i wish i can b like b4.. just need sometime alone to think again after exams bah.. last time think of giving chance... now think of moving on...... no worry~ i will. mayb a yr later bah.. haaa~ wateva.. i type more tonite bah.... i wanna study todae... life can b full of shit... but life can b full of candies too. sweet happy .. wish u both happily ever after...

haiz.... no mood to study even now... dunno y... seems to keep thinking of wat i couldn't let go but i MUST.. ... tml is my 2nd last paper... engineering maths.... so stupid gonna score for tat..... but i just started studying only~ haiz... i really feel so useless...somehow feel like give up fighting for everything.... haiz...

the battle is right infront of me.... and im a weak warrior..... kill me and tear me apart~

jeff

my 2nd paper which i feel like giving up.

2005-04-11T07:59:00.000+08:00

i only need 5 marks to pass this stupid paper... yet i dun hab to mood to go for the paper. mayb its due to wat happen to me for my first paper bah.. haiz... guess i just gonna move on after so much things had happen.. i wished the ben ben and her gd luck for their papers. hope they do well bah... same to yun~ i shall just go back to my slp and see if i really feel like going for the paper anot.. haiz.. nitez everybody.... life is nv happy when theres parting.....but im glad i've know u. it takes time bah.... pls dun rush me for an ans. i dun even noe wat i want and who i am now...thanks.. sry for existing.

jeff

hmm...interesting nite

2005-04-10T10:49:00.000+08:00

After all the unhappy things... i reached home and received some sms from frens asking to go rounding and etc.. intially tot of going...but after chatting with someone who care for me.. i decided not to go... i off* my hp. lol... surprisingly this is the only and first time i rejected an rounding trip bcos of a person... hAha... AnD tat person got a very serious problem... she tends fly to other universe and dun come back.... tok to her will need extra illusion... lol* sHe got interesting weird dreams tat i nv ever had~... (tooth falling off) and etc.... haa..really very ke ai gal indeed... i tok to her alot abt my feelings my problems and my troubles...... and she's always there to cheer me and tok with me... thanks ar! ben ben~... mayb its true tat i think too much le.. guess i gonna just let things off and heck care...just b happy always~ hee* =) anyway... when i feeling down or wateva.. i wun say "I love ********" loud la.... but i will still call u de... no worry~ just study hard and i wish u all the best...

as for yun~ sorry and really very sorry leh... kinda risky to sit in my car... =X dui bu qi ar..nx time i xin qing bu hao.. its better for u to take public transport home.. lol... i used to drive slowly bcos of my past tat someone keeps complaining.. now the person is gone so i go back to my past.. lol.... u got hair tangle or heart attack or wat just dun come and find me hor... =X

im glad to hab all of u ard me... yeah.... god send me angels...~! haaa... and for the ben ben... u r the cutest~ lol happy? gao xing mah? yun u r the kindest~... most impt...both of u noe me well.. Haaa

hmmm... going out to study le..no time to look back~ lol study hard bah every1~ junting~ u always hab my blessing...all the best.. =) hope he's nice to u bah... feel free to look up for me as a fren bah... i've think thru' and i feel that i should just let things goes as it is bah... .. all the lies and hidings r the past... hope these will nv happen ever again... same as to all my frens... pls dun do it.. it hurts =)

thanks for cheering me up~

i appreciate that.

miss you.

thanks.

say die.

jeff

hmmm.. so fasT... saturday liao..

2005-04-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

such a boring sat morning... just wake up..... so tired.. in fact the medicine prescribe by the doc seems to work well bah... cos..... all the medicine will cause drowsiness... eat liao can sleep well thru out.. haa.. going out for awhile with my mum and my sister... they wanna go pray.. instead of staying alone at home i accompany them go pray lor... then after tat go eat breakfast/lunch then coming back home.. reached home liao send my sister to hilton hotel..then i come back home again~. oNce again.. rEached home liao... bring/accompany my mum go buy something.....then come home again~ ONCE ONCE again... i reached home le... then drive out to pass someone things... saw something i shouldn't see. anywaY...after tat i decided to go pick and meet my fRen... so go to queensway to meet her..then go for a movie... mayb its just so fated tat i should face wat i coming bah... so i can tell myself to let go...

Hope everyone hab a sweet sweet dream and a nice day ahead.

fengfeng.aka.Benben: i've seen a doc finally~ i guai right? lol..

yun: Sorry if i scared u when im driving u back.

huiwen: thanks for ur concern during these period.. i appreciate tat. thanks.

tingz: as u can see once things are over.... so now i hope u r happier each and every day. all the best to u & him.

jeff

YEsterdaY i had mY fiRsT papER

2005-04-08T11:49:00.000+08:00

wah... i go into the examination room with running nose and cough.... felt so disturbing to everyone out there in the room.... sorry ar... i've used up 2 packets of tissue when i was doing my paper.... 2nd person to leave in the class... dunno can pasS anot.. pray hope bah... haiz... friday wor... so sianz at home now..... feel slightly better le... nose not running anymore but throat is killing me... dotx... y must i b suffering over all these during exams period??? haiz...
oH~ wO dE tIan ARrrrr~ *hee* .. aiyah.. im so bored ....... nvm... blog again tonite

wednesday liao~ tml is my FirST paper~!

2005-04-06T10:38:00.000+08:00

fiRst paper tml... Module : S&C (ET0048) ... finally.... i've waited for so long.... 9am paper..hope i can wake up bah... nv really study much..todae must start chionging/mugging liao... I'm not gonna let myself score below my expectation.. alt' still feverish now + cough la... i guess i will be okay after exams bah.... now going to prepare and go sch to get back my S&C text book. lol.. cos yesterday saw someone i dun like tats y didn't study... and pack things back into my bag and leave asAP. haa... yesterday oso not a very good day... hope things will be settled soon after exams bah... Gonna thanks "ben ben Feng fenG" for the chat yesterday.. haha.. good luck and all the best for every1 who is having papers todae and tml bah... and hor...thanks leh green monster~ u lighten my stress by giving me this kinda quiz.. lol ~ =) anything anytime anyplace u all xiang wo can call/sms me. huggies* take care.... bye(blog more tonite if im free)

i will try to dotx less and luff more. lol

jeff

tuesday liao.. 2 more days to my first paper.

2005-04-05T12:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm... late nite having stomach cramp....last for abt 2 hrs.... so painful~! then i fell asleep.... Zzz... abt 3am like tat she sms me telling me she go slp le.... then i wake up to reply... At the same time the pain come back again.. dots..... endure till i fall asleep again lor.. haiz.. y must all these happen to me~!? sad. most guy frens will laugh at me cos they assume tat only female will hab stomach cramp during their monthly "auntie visit". but mayb bcos they got only fats no stomach muscle bah..tats y they wun hab such things happening on them. LoL* i forgive them for not understanding*
Morning wake up ard 8am to call her.... cos she's having paper todae..then she needa time to study more.. ... call her liao i go back to sleep.... till 11+ then wake up lor... >.< haha* mummy prepare honey + lemon juice for me.. cos last nite she noe im having soar throat... Aw.w.w. so Nice~! heee.. mummy noe me the besT~!* hee* anyway... i gonna thanks qiu yun for Lin jun jie songs tat u've sent me last nite... and also thanks for helping me burn the disc wor.. xie xie ni*

I wish tat Pig Pig do well for her papers this afternoon bah.... all the best PIG PIG~!

jeff

Monday.... tiring day.

2005-04-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

todae wake up quite early la.... cos raining... then the rain water blown into my room and wet my face oso... HAhaha... can tell its such a heavy rain.... then i wake up liao dun dare to call tat pig pig..... so i go online lor... meanwhile i msg tat BEN daN "feng feng". wishing her good luck for her coming papers and etc. since i nv msg her for so damm long le..somemore its exam period... then Madam chong came online and asked me something abt java. so i show her the way to do it lor.. after tat i rushed off to meet tat pig pig at bedok interchange... we waited so long... and realise the free shuttle bus to parkway parade is terminated for weekdays le... LoL. we seems so dumb waiting for nth. after tat we took bus 31 there lor... went to the food court to hab my lunch after tat to BK to study lor... as usual i no mood to study...and she at least got study abit.. but i kinda guilty to disturb her..and i gtg off early bcos mummy coming back tonite..haiz.... seems like wasting her time more on travel than to study. *sorry*... As usual... sEems so cLose...yeT so fAr... for exams and for her... haiz.... hope the torturing period will soon b over..... Sunshine after the rain bah~. Love can't be forced. anyway...study oso cannot be forced de... HAHahaa... =X

study hard bah everybody~! We might not be fortunate like TP or other poly tat already ended their examination... but we r still the clevereST!~ lol... like NUS..they oso going to start their examination soon... =P clever ppl always end late. *Good luck*

jeff

Sunday = bad dAy

2005-04-03T23:24:00.000+08:00

aiyoyo..... i wake up at 12+pm then called her. Realise tat she's much piggy than me.. haiz... i felt so sick todae... throat so damm painful.. but i nv bother abt it bah...then i wake up... keep playing gB... nv study at all... haiz.. then play till abt 5+ then i quickly drive to meet her.... bring her to bishan to collect some notes from her fren... and i needa b home by 6+ before 7pm. i rush until so fast and when i reach my house carpark ... my sis say she dun need the car liao... DotX...... rush for nth.. ZZz.z.z... then after tat i bathe liao went out to eat dinner with her.. went to eat @ old airport road hawker. i ate pork congee and actually tot of drinking coke with salt(which ppl say tat its cooling). so i buy pepsi twist cos got lemon mah...mayb even better for my throat. i pay money liao then the uncle tell me no Salt. wAT the hEll~. make me sianz 1/2. After dinner i drive her back home lor... then i ZOoom ZOoooM home. Todae my temperature is 37.1 degrees.
which is not sick.. but i really feel so feverish + soar throat. So long nv kana all these sickness liao le..... somemore the fever comes and go..... make my whole day sianz 1/2

jeff

let me post for wat happen on saturday first

2005-04-03T04:28:00.000+08:00

Morning : Went to pray for my bro. wake up early and my sister and me was caught in a boh liao traffic jam.. dotx.... kinda so long nv go there..... but i will nv forget... i miss u alot, kor kor. haiz...

Afternoon : Went to sister's office to get her stuff... then after tat we went shopping for my cousin's baby bday gift lor.... then went to pump petrol.... dotx.... then then then and then went over to junting's place. Cos todae i sick sick.. then she so nice wanna take care of me...so go pick her to my place lor....

Late Afternoon : Junting and me went to eat our lunch @ bedok .. after tat we went to kallang mac to study. i didn't really study much lar..once again i feel so guilty to disturb ppl. hAIz.z...
in the end..we study only abit then keep taking photos with our hps...(actually.. i miss the old days)

Nitex: Went home after studying... then go eat with papa and jie jie @ 85. food seems so tasteless to me. mayb bcos i soar throat & feverish. After dinner i sent her home.

Late nitex: went to LinLi's bday with jianhui. everybody seems to b so anti social. only linli bah..
Dawn and michelle oso ignored me for no reason.. mayb due to some reasons tat i dunno lor.
since in tat case.. jianhui and me left the chalet earlier... and he went to sharon's place. As for me.. i went to meet up with my frens... they drink alcohol.. i drink coke. dotx... but we tok abt alot of unhappy things out... and hmmm... ya... i guess they r true enough and always there when u need them... buddy~ poor jimmy.. he drink till he puke out his lunch + dinner. dotx.... feel sad for him.. as for mei shi... got nth to say... quite a good alcoholic drinker.. Then i went home late lor... dad nagging and nagging. dotx... haiz..... guess nobody noes how i feel. i do hope everyone out there stay happy always ...esp junting. i hope u soon understand everything one day.

Thats all for Saturday.. im going to bed and hab a brand new day aheAD~!.. hugz*

jeff

boring friday.. its always boring before exams

2005-04-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

Its so boring ar~.... send my sister to work liao then i drive to sch... nv really wanna speed la... not rushing anyway. drive slowly to sch... then suddenly feel so hungry...yet no one accompany me for breakfast..so i shall just skip it~ i reach sch so early in the morning at 8:40am. Book a com at efac which is T1464. stupid com.. took so long to startup... after startup oso took so long to login to my sch a/c.. total took me abt 10 mins at least. Toking to Madam Chong thru msn lor...viewing my friendster and slacking ard in the lab.. so SIanz.~ wearing formal...but very crumpled shirt... so sianz... black and white.. looks like waiter... aRgh..h.. stupid presentation.. guess im going home to change after tat... else i look like those china construction working like tat... haiz......

Ohh... finally the presentation is over... not too bad la... straight after tat i went to find junting and accompany her to the finance building to pay her school fee. then i nv go back to class which im suppose to. =X noti noti. aFter tat we went to orchard to watch "Spanglish" in cineleisure... then send her back.. then send her for her tennis lesson. Follow by my dinner ... qiuyun accompany me to eat in bedok interchange... i ate quite alot wor... guess im hungry when im kinda upset bah... haiz

Come back home Gb. till now...and toking to junting on phone discussing something impt and after tat im going to bed.

life is nv beautiful if u nv put in the effort. same goes to everything tats happening ard us.

Jeff

My thursday

2005-03-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... bored lor..... exams coming.. studying is a must..but i haven't start. haha =X im someone who study last min de lor... if i study abt 1 mth b4 surely fail... the reason is : i cannot store so many things in my brain for so long... hee* same old thing.. i played GB just now with yunnie and elm... keep losing todae.. dunno y.. mayb too stressed up by exams bah... mum went to malaysia le... and once again im home without mum..haiz.. its so lonely.... but when she's ard..she keep nagging and nagging me to study... i dunno..somehow not every1 understand me well bah..im just a weird person with alot of things to think abt. in another words im just a boh liao person who keep thinking of sad and unhappy things.... haiz.. Went to study with qiuyun at bedok mac.. so noisy..didn't study much... instead i think i disturb her alot.. =X paiseh* got home...and just play Gb all the way... until she called. and from all i noe... she is not proud to b with me and nv loved me...since u can't answer my question.. we shall just b friends bah.. so as not to make things difficult for u..

i'm back to single. or rather i've nv started any. feel free to come to me~ haa*

*mad*

hope exams will b over soon.... wish all of u from SP pass all ur modules with flying colours bah. take care.missing everyone...hugz*

Truthful, Care, Love, Simple.

(When things r not meant to be.. dun force it. When things happens face it, never avoid problems)

Jeff